- 5 years ago
- Wedding: August 2014
Let me begin to excuse my English, it’s not my native language. I live somewhere in Europe 😉
I feel so embarrased and feel quilty with the thought I ruined the birthdayparty of my little niece today. I’ve been trying to conceive for over 5 years but I’m unexplained less fertile. I’m undergoing fertility treatments and in the meanwhile we make the best of it. Today was a little to much though with three pregnant ladies and a room full of happy moms. It was to much hearing about pregnacy sickness, breastfeeding, first walk, first teeth, first day at kindergarten. It’s not that I’m not happy for others I just all confronts me with what I don’t have… After three hours of trying to look happy I just broke down in front of all my family-in-law and friends of my sister-in-law, (most of them I don’t even know). It was horrible … that got all the (negative) attention on me, but I couldn’t controll myself. And I feel so bad now because it should of been a very happy birthday for my niece.
I left the birtdayparty early and haven’t talked with my sister-in-law. I’m affraid she’s angry at me. I wanted to call but my husband said better wise to leave it alone because I would just put more attention on myself.
Someone that can relate to my story? Or people who are dealing with infertile friends and/ or family?