- 6 years ago
- Wedding: October 2013
Four years ago, I was in a bike accident and sustained a head injury and damaged my hand really badly. I ended up off work for two months after surgery and hit a really bad depression…I was put on Cymbalta (antidepressant) and in the following two years gained forty pounds and turned to food rather than the gym for solace.
I ended up at 165 with no muscle mass, alot of fat on my small frame and barely recognized myself in the mirror. I lost the relationship that I was in at the time due to the depression, and about two years ago I managed to lose thirty pounds on WW and met my wonderful fiance. Since then the scale has crept back up to 145 and now the wedding is 10 months away and I want to get my weight down and fitness back before I walk down the aisle.
Last night my fiance and I were leaving to go to the gym for the first time and I LOST MY SH*T. I pretty much had an anxiety attack (crying and all), and my fiance managed to get me to talk through it and get to the conclusion that I’m scared to start excercising because it might not work. I seem to be like this with dieting too–I get about two weeks in and then LEAP off the wagon into a pile of margarine and Caramel Macchiatos. What is wrong with me? I have a clear goal, lots of resources at my fingertips yet I consistently sabotage my own efforts. Has anyone gone through this? Any fit ladies have any tips to stay motivated?