- 5 years ago
- Wedding: October 2015
Hi bees, I’ve recently got engaged four months ago but have been recently having doubts. Am in much need of advice.
I got with my partner when I was 14, him 17, and we have now been together 6 years. We got engaged this year, it was a beautiful proposal. However, before we got engaged I started having doubts about our relationship. I broke down one day and my parents found me upset, I felt like I was releasing all these emotions that had built up inside me. I told them I wasn’t sure I still wanted to be with him, and they were confused as they thought we were going great. Mum said it was better to deal with those feelings early before I commit. But I actually felt trapped, because in a few weeks after the break up we were booked to go on a holiday and get engaged (we had already discussed it). I went back to him because I felt a little trapped and because I wanted to make things work. Before he proposed I felt nervous and anxious about it, but I couldn’t say no to his face and also because we’ve been together so long, I do love him.
What worries me is, four months on, I’m still having doubts. Whenever I meet a guy I get along well with and become good friends with them, I start to get confused and have doubts about my own relationship. It seems I always go through phases of getting caught up in a guy, yet I have always been with my partner. We have a big history, beautiful memories and I love who he is and he treats me like the only girl in the absolute world. What kills me though, is why I’m not sure of anything – I don’t know if i’m ‘in love’ but I feel like I can’t put him through the torment of calling things off as i have several times before. Someone please help 🙁