- 6 years ago
I need some advice on this and dont know where to turn.
I just found out that my former best friend, who I havent spoken to in a loooooong time, is getting married in 2 weeks and I just feel so emotional. Its been 5 years since we stopped talking, and we were friends for 12 years.
When I was 20, I had an accidental OD after my first time trying something and had a complete breakdown in front of a lot of people. When I got out of hospital, I really needed someone to comfort me as it was the worst experience of my life. I asked my best friend to come over, and when I told her what happened she said “I have no sympathy for you at all”. I was completely shocked and taken aback and hurt beyond belief. When she left I just burst into tears and have never felt so alone. I never spoke to her again. It felt like she didnt even care that I had lived through it, she was so cold. We had been friends since we were kids, grown up together but this was something so unbelievably painful and at the lowest point of my life that I just couldnt deal.
I wish sometimes I could still talk to her, and I miss our friendship. But I feel that what she said really showed her true colours…..I would never have said what she said to me to even my worst enemy. When I found out she was getting married, I was so sad because I had always imagined being there for her on that special day, we talked about being each others bridesmaids and everything and i feel like the one stupid thing i did cost me so much in life. But at the same time, I wanted to have her comfort me and not stab me in the heart like she did. Should I send her a message to say congratulations about her wedding, or would that just be going back into the past and digging up a friendship that is best left behind?