- 6 years ago
I wrote a recent post regarding my ex boyfriend newly engaged to a girl from the wrong side of the tracks.
They have only been together for a little over a month.
RECENTLY, as in Sunday night, he was hanging out with a mutual male friend of ours, and he told my friend he was going home because he had a really bad headache.
He went home, then the “new” girl found him on the grass, unconcious, with blood coming out of his nose and ears. I don’t know how long he was like that. He was having seizures.
If any of you read my recent post, you may recall that he did drugs (meth and heroin) for over 10 years. As a result, he about destroyed his kidneys, he has really high blood pressure, just not very healthy.
Well, he’s now in the hospital, intubated, and his kidneys are supposedly completely shut down.
I’m so so so brokenhearted.
THIS WOULD NEVER HAVE HAPPENED IF HE WAS WITH ME.
Albeit, I broke up with him because he was so toxic. BUT STILL. I made sure he ate right, for crying out loud!!!
If this girl truly loved him, she would have KNOWN about his health conditions and would never have agreed to do meth with him.
Has anything like this every happened to anyone?
He collapsed exactly ONE month (Sept 2) after my dad died (Aug 2). I am having such a difficult time with this. Did he ever think of me during the time he was with this girl (past month and a half)?
Did he use the meth knowing full well that it could possibly end up like this?
Did he do this because he knew he destroyed our relationship and so he was self-destructing with this no-good girl?
I’m at a loss for words and sick to my stomach. I Live a stinkin’ good life. I’m responsible. Work in the legal field. Earn a good living. This kind of drama is so so so foreign to me. I’m as clean as a whistle. Do drink, smoke.
I feel there is so much left unsaid between me and my ex. I love him still. While I know he was no good for me and never was nor will ever be, but my love was real. It’s not a switch I can turn off or on. I am sad he will die without either one of us ever having the chance to say we’re sorry for the failed relationship. I want to tell him I love him.
I spoke with his mom this morning. She will call me with an update later today. But I have no plans of going to the hospital.
I had a feeling this was going to happen one day, but I didn’t expect it to happen so soon.
I appreciate any feed back. Please, kind words only, as I am hurting right now.