- 8 years ago
- Wedding: September 2012
Hello Hive 🙂
I am a regular poster who has something embarrassing I’d like to discuss. I compulsively pick my face. I have always touched and messed with my face, but over the last three years it’s become a real problem. I have a history with anorexia, I consider myself ‘in recovery’ but I’ve never worked with a professional. I fear that while I have stopped starving myself and have a better relationship with food I only replaced that coping mechanism with a new one – picking.
My face looks terrible. I pick all of the time. I pick while I read, watch TV., even drive – during those times I’m usually unaware of it. I have regular picking sessions where I sit in front of a mirror and pick, this usually last 20-30 mins. If I have any blackheads or pimples I’ll pick them, but if I don’t have anything I’ll create things to pick. I’m always checking my scalp for things to pick because my hair covers it and people won’t seem the marks left behind. My fiance is always telling me to stop and I know it bothers him, but I can’t stop.
I have decided to start therapy and am currently searching for a therapist in my area. I don’t know anyone with this problem. I’ve never even heard about anyone with this problem. I did find a little information online which helps; it’s nice to know you’re not the only one.
I’m not sure why I’m writing this. I guess just to get it out; to finally admit it’s something I’ve lost control over. If you have any advice or experience with this I would love to hear it. I would also love to hear about others seeing a psychiatrist or psychologist. I’ve never been in therapy and I must admit I’m scared and a little embarrassed by the thought of it.