(Closed) Faking happiness on difficult waiting days?

posted 7 years ago in Waiting
Post # 3
1325 posts
Bumble bee

Hmmmm,I personally don’t do well with “faking” it.

My suggestion would be to stay out of the house away from him. lol

Spa day with friends? Weekend at the beach?

Post # 4
120 posts
Blushing bee

@shirinjoon – This happens to me too! I always promise myself that I won’t tell Mr.C what’s wrong but eventually do in the end. I’m curious to hear what others say.

Post # 5
413 posts
Helper bee
  • Wedding: June 2012

@Shirinjoon: SHOP! Every time I feel like crap because I’m *still* not engaged, I go shopping. It gives me a little boost of confidence. If you don’t want to go shopping, then get your hair done. Do something that makes you feel good about yourself, because let’s face it… Waiting this long eventually takes a toll on our self-esteem. We need that little boost of confidence once in a while.

Do something awesome for YOU!


Post # 7
98 posts
Worker bee

@Shirinjoon: I can completely understand where you are coming from here.  It’s that feeling of “aren’t I worth it? why isn’t he jumping up and down to have me?  why doesn’t he hurry up and secure this and make sure i’m his forever?”  And when those thoughts start to torment you, you envision all kinds of things happening . . . like years and years ticking by and then finally breaking up.  Or him just keeping you around as an option while keeping eyes open for other potentials.  Or all kinds of other horrible things . . . And, honestly, it is so difficult because a lot of the times you get the feelings of anger, hurt or self-pity as *though* the thing you fear as already happened.

The negative feelings often come from negative thoughts that you’ve been entertaining.  So I think that you need to make sure that you pay attention to what you are thinking and what ideas you are dwelling on.  And when it gets to some of those dreaded scenarios that we all play in our heads at times, stop it and switch to something else.  If getting out and going for a run, or watching your favorite program, or talking to a friend, or shopping . .. helps you to get your mind on something else, then do that.  But most of all, just make sure you control those thought patterns.  If you get the negative thoughts, remind yourself of the actual truth.  “I’m going to dismiss that thought because I know that SO and I already talked about the fact that we are planning to get engaged, etc.”  to keep yourself on track. 

In my experience, I went thru a really rough time a couple of months after I moved to England, because I figured that SO would propose shortly after I got here based on how serious we were and how much we had already talked about marriage before I came.  And when I’d been here for about three months, and he wasn’t doing it . . . I wondered what was going on, and wondered if he hadn’t made up his mind about me now that we were finally in person, or if he was testing me out to see if I was “good enough”, or keeping options open, or losing interest, or whatever.  While it was true that both he and I felt that we needed to spend more time together in person before making such a big decision as marriage, I really did feel ready after just those few months . . . that was really all I needed and I was kinda worried that it didn’t seem to be the same for him.  It was so hard and did a number on my self-esteem.  And like you are saying he could SEE that something was wrong, and would ask me about it and really push for it, and I would finally tell him and it would really upset the apple cart because it made him think that I was pushing for engagement and he wanted that to be his territory.  In fact, I was simply trying to flesh him out and just figure out what was going on in his head and make some plans for the future (whether by myself or with him) and just know how guarded to keep my emotions.

Anyway, he just has difficulty communicating about things like love and marriage.  He was fine talking about it in theory . .. but when it comes to HIS feelings for ME, and his plans for our future together . . .. it’s tougher for him to get it out.  So it took a while for him to explain that he wants to get married and wants to get engaged as soon as he finishes his PhD (which should be a few months from now).  I stopped pestering him after a few rough conversations, and eventually this came out when he was ready to talk about it.  I think the thing that gives me confidence and security now is knowing that he brought that up because he wanted to . . . and he also mentions it pretty regularly now, saying he can’t wait to finish the PhD so we can start our lives together, pointing out other people who have gotten married in a shorter timespan than we have and saying that he is tired of having life on hold, etc.  So that has really helped me.

But . . . back to the original point . . . I think it really is in learning to redirect your thoughts that you can have a lot of success regulating your emotions.  Dwell on things that are positive, tell yourself that it is all going to work out and that SO is pulling things together, etc.  

Post # 8
23 posts
  • Wedding: August 2012

Well all I have to say is I am glad I am not the only one. I felt so selfish for getting so upset on some days when an engagement didn’t happen.  There was one day a few weeks ago when he was acting all nervous, and I thought “this is going to be it” and when it wasn’t I cried all the way home.  I keep trying to stay positive and think of how wonderful it will feel when it happens after all this waiting.

Post # 12
1880 posts
Buzzing bee
  • Wedding: July 2012

@GwenvonD:  LOL!  I’ve actually been shopping A LOT lately due to the stress of waiting and due to losing 40 pounds (and still going!).  It actually helps!  AND, my SO has noticed my trendy (and smaller) new clothes and my being “unavailable” more often and has actually stepped it up in the engagement department.  Last weekend he asked about how he should ask my family for their blessing and whether I wanted to pick out my own ring (which he prefers I do).  So maybe there’s something to the shopping remedy.  LOL!

OP – sending you hugs and postive thoughts.  I know waiting is hard but you have to stay focused on the positive and keep doing you.  When my SO asks what’s wrong, I don’t lie, I just say “nothing”.  It works for me, maybe that will work for you.  Keep your head up.

Post # 13
1729 posts
Bumble bee
  • Wedding: May 2016

@LondonAmericana: Awesome post.  It’s frustrating that our own hopes, expectations and disappointment can lead to such negative thinking and even resentment of our BFs that we feel we need to hide it, and in the hiding they realize somethign is wrong and when it finally comes out, you’re both furstrated, which can then lead to an argument/you’re pushing too hard conversation, meaning you are no closer to where you need to be.

Shirinjoon – I’d have to agree with possibly finding things to do away from him on those days, at least a few hours until you feel you’re back in control.  I know one thing – if you want to be in a good mood, don’t listen to sad music ๐Ÿ™‚  Make an “I’m going to get happy, damnit!” playlist and then go for a walk or find something active to do when you can listen to it. 

Worst case waiting for July proposal is now just over 2 months –  Only 67 Days ๐Ÿ˜›

Post # 15
3461 posts
Sugar bee
  • Wedding: May 2012

I worried that come July you’ll have this feeling x10, so my advice to you is to plan out your July!  I think you should book yourself a fun class of some kind (e.g. pottery) to distract you.  Create a book list or list of recipes you’ll master or list of movies to watch.  Plan out some advance trips w/the gals.  Basically…keep yourself distracted with goodies in July (and something *really* good in the very beginning of August).  Obviously, try to not book it up so much you won’t be available for a proposal, but make your number one task right now figuring out how to help the July you.

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