- 8 years ago
- Wedding: April 2011 - in the woods
The thought of planning our wedding is a bit disappointing. I guess I have gotten over the fact that it won’t be similar to my “dream wedding.” I have gotten over the fact that it will be held here, in Alabama. I have gotten over the fact that my parents aren’t financing any of it. I have gotten over the fact that it will be small – about 32 people – due to the limited budget.
And it’s fine. Truly. I know that, in the end, whatever the wedding is like will be more beautiful than anything I could have ever dreamed of if we keep the Lord the center of it. I know that the Lord’s creation is absolutely beautiful down here in Alabama as well and He will give us whatever weather He would like us to have. I know that the Lord will – and already has! – provide the needed money. And I know that having a simple, intimate wedding with family and closest friends will be simply beautiful and fun as well.
The problems come with my family. Always drama, people, always drama. My parents said they won’t attend the wedding if I invite certain siblings. My mom doesn’t want to fly (for free) down here to help shop for a dress/plan. My parents don’t like my dress at all. And they have said other, hurtful things.
I realize it’s not about them. It’s about the covenant Cody and I will make before God. I realize it’s not about pleasing them. It’s about glorifying God.
But still…I think every girl would love her mom to be a part of this time of her life. For support, for ideas, for enjoying it together. I don’t know what went wrong.
But then I listen to Christmas songs. Namely, this one: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q9hnTMfJCio
Whose lyrics say this:
O Holy Night! The stars are brightly shining. It is the night of the dear Saviour’s birth. Long lay the world in sin and error pining. ‘Til He appeared and the soul felt its worth. A thrill of hope, the weary world rejoices For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn…. Truly He taught us to love one another. His law is love and His gospel is peace. Chains shall He break, for the slave is our brother. And in His name all oppression shall cease. Sweet hymns of joy in grateful chorus raise weWith all our hearts praise His holy name.
It’s all about God. (And Jesus, of course, but They’re one.) It’s all about love, of peace, of being freed from our sins and the things that weigh us down. And in response to this, of being a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing unto God.
It’s not about Mom or no mom to help with planning, parents’ support or no parents’ support.
I just have to stay focused on God, on running the race focused on Him. Sometimes things can be so distracting. But I’m striving to throw off everything that hinders me and the sin that so easily entangles me and keep on running with perseverance, fixing my eyes on Jesus Christ, the Author and Finisher of my faith.