- 5 years ago
- Wedding: May 2014
On most days, I do not talk to my little brother. It has been this way for years. We both accpet this. He don’t like me because I call him out on his s**t, I don’t like him because he is constantly upsetting the entire family. I will refer to him as T.
Late last night I get a phone call. Normally I do not answer numbers if I don’t recognize them…..for what ever reason I answered this call. A woman’s voice says A (wont put my sister name on here, we will call her A), I said no this is _____. I instantly can tell who it is by the sound of the voice, it is T’s wife. And I cannot stand her either.
Little bit of history. T is 37, has been in prison 2 times, both times for felony drug charges. In the past I have tried to help T and his wife by giving them a place to stay. Needless to say, they stole from me and my children. They are both using meth, and have been for years. Neither of them have a job, and have all these episodes of trauma…..and they just expect the family to rush in and give them whatever they may need.
Anyways, she passes the phone off to my brother who is winded and freaking out. He tells me that he is in trouble, and on the run. Wants to know if I have $100 to give him to put his wife and her kids in a hotel so they will be safe. Goes on to tell me that he will probably be locked up and for me to come and visit him. I lied and told him I didn’t have any money. Then he tells me to have J (my sisters daughter) call him. I get off the phone with him, and send my sister a message.
Just as I am getting ready to go to bed, the phone rings again. This time it is A, my sister. Who is also freaking out. she is a hypochondriac (spelling?). She is going on and on about how sick she is and how terrible she is feeling, and asks me what the message was about. So I tell her what T has told me. And then she starts going on about her illness and she doens’t know what she should do. And then she tells me that she just spoke to my dad, who is really upset over whatever is going on with T. I push her a little bit and she is reluctant to tell me anymore of what she knows….she is still going on and on about being ill with whatever sickness she haa this week.
Finally she tells me. That my brother called my dad, before he called me and was going on about someone being dead. And hs is hiding and he will probably go to jail.
Dead. That was about the only word that stuck out in my brain at this moment. I tell her I have to go. I need to call Dad.
My Fiance’ who is sitting and listening to all of this. Looks at me and says. Do you need me to check on pops? And he goes next door to talk with my dad. When he comes back, it is obvious now that he too is upset. And he tells me basically the same thing my sister told me. And added on that my father is in tears, and very distraught. My dad is 84, years old.
So after my mad rush out in the snow storm of rushing around making sure that all cars, out buildings, and RV is locked. I came back in and talked to my fiance. And he say to me. Do you think someone was killed because of drugs. And truthfully, I just cannot get past the word DEAD yet. I tell my SO that I don’t know what that means, it could be just my brother going off on a tangent being paranoid and suffing from a delusion. But, who knows?
All I know is I didn’t sleep well last night. I am tired of T doing this. I am tired of watching my father get his hopes up that his only son is doing good, to be following up by another extreme failure. I am tired of having a family that is so fucked up. I am angry that I had to make the call to prison when my mother died, to tell my brother. I am scared that he may have done something really bad this time. I AM SO SICK OF THIS SHIT!!!!!! It has been 20 years of drug addicted drama with him. And on some day I just wish that he would get locked up forever, or overdose so this will end.
Am I being crazy like them? Do I need to call the cops? I don’t know what to do. I feel terrible this morning for not putting her and the kids in a hotel to keep them safe. But at the same time. I just don’t want to be involved AT ALL!!
I want a new family. Mine is just embarrassing!!