Post # 1
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Sugar bee
I’m sick of this baby weight. Effing sick of it. I’m sick of Weight Watchers this time around. Sick of being hungry constantly. Sick of eating effing apples & fruit, so I’ll have JUST enough points for some semblance of dinner. Sick of “cheating” BECAUSE I’m sick of apples & fruit. I feel like crying a lot of the time. I’m NOT a nice calm hungry person. You like raw carrots? That’s great! I DON’T. I force myself to eat stuff like that, bit inside I’m screaming for an effing giant piece of cake & ice cream! Raw veggies make me want to gag. I’m tired of trying to be something I’m not, which is thin. Even when I’m “thin” I’m not thin. At the LEAST I’ve weighed in YEARS, I was still 146 & that is the TOP (literally THE highest weight) allowed for my body type & height before I’m considered “overweight”. Sure, everyone tells me “You carry it so well!” Who the hell CARES?! It’s not necessarily that I CARRY it well, it’s that I know how to DRESS to HIDE IT. I guarantee if those same people saw me in a bikini they’d be like “Oh. My bad.” EFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I’m SO stressed out lately. I was much more successful & disciplined on WW last time but now? Lots has changed since then, most notably having an infant, not having time to work out like I used to, being tired all the time (which also causes hunger) feeling like a run down “mom” instead of the person I used to be. I feel like I’m just going through the motions trying to lose weight. I need to lose about 25 lbs to be happy with the way I look & even then I won’t be “thin”. Thin, to me, is willowy. Like size 6 or something. It would take a year in a concentration camp for me to see size 6. My body doesn’t DO that.
I’m also stressed out because I have ZERO time to myself anymore. My job is my ME time. I can’t even take a nice relaxing bath at home IF I had time because I hate our bathroom & tub! It’s so old & gross & no amount of cleaning helps! I hate our house, the bathroom, the tub, the yard. I hate Weight watchers, not having time to myself, not being able to EAT hardly anything at all! Me & hubby have been arguing about the house situation (he doesn’t think we can afford a NEW one. He’s NUTS. We absolutely CAN) & I just want the box of donuts in the break room right now! OMG HELP ME!!!!!!!!!
Ok. I feel marginally better now. Maybe.
Post # 2
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5940 posts
Bee Keeper
Me, too. Almost all of the above. BUT I didn’t have a baby. It’s just fat fat.
Post # 3
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2511 posts
Sugar bee
RedHeadKel: lol LOVE it.
I did end up eating half a donut. Then some apples, baby carrots & string cheese.
Post # 5
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4430 posts
Honey bee
Maybe see a nutritionist?
Post # 6
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1920 posts
Buzzing bee
okqueenbee: I’m no help… I just walked into Walmart for some upholstery cleaner and walked out with 4 bags of Easter candy. WTF!?!
Post # 7
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5870 posts
Bee Keeper
okqueenbee: I totally relate to your feelings about WW. it was the kind of thing that worked for me in the short term (for a few months) but I just felt so deprived and hungry. I’m sure it was partly psychological, but I just can’t live my life counting calories and portion sizes. I went paleo 2 years ago and that’s been a MUCH better fit for me. I eat a lot more fat and fewer carbs now, and think I have a really healthy diet (tons of veggies, only good quality meats and fats, not “fake food”). You might consider trying something along those lines? It’s not perfect (for example, you do have to do a fair bit of cooking and if you hate veggies that’s going to be a detriment on any diet…and I still totally crave brownies and cheat regularly with chocolate) but it seems to work for a lot of people who feel deprived on calorie counting diets.
Post # 8
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Helper bee
I’m with you. I also need to lose 25lbs of baby weight I’ve been carrying for over 6 months now.. i’m not on WW but I use myfitnesspal which pretty much has the same outcome – starves me to death. DH has been really good about watching the baby while I work out but it sucks working all day then instead of spending time with my baby, I’m screaming at Jillian Michaels on my tv. The only advice I can give you to curb your sweet tooth – i’m addicted to sugar free jello and pudding. It’s my bed time snack now. I also have skinnycow ice cream stocked away for my really rough days. Hang in there girl!
Post # 9
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2511 posts
Sugar bee
Laurenplusalex: LOL!
BellaDee: I was thinking more along the lines of a hypnotist.. “I’m going to count backwards from 10 & when I get to 1, you will never crave sugar or carbs agaaaiiinnn….”
MiJeS1104: I could scarf down 2 of them right now, no prob.
cbgg: I might check into it. Have you lost weight? Note: I don’t hate veggies. I love cooked ones but for a quick snack at work that’s not very convenient. I like raw ones too, just DIPPED in something which defeats the purpose.
BeatlesFan629: I do like pudding, but it probably has 3 or 4 points for a cup. I’ll check into it though!
Post # 10
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5009 posts
Bee Keeper
BeatlesFan629: If you’re starving then you’re doing it wrong. Have you done the usual thing of setting it as 1200 calories a day/2lb a week loss?
Post # 11
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Bumble bee
okqueenbee: Sorry WW friend to hear you’re having a hard time. In any lifestyle change, there are down periods so that is natural. I think you need to be patient with yourself and less hard on yourself.
I have battled weight loss for years. Once I accepted myself and was happy with myself AS IS, I freed myself to get out of the cycle of guilt and shame to tackle the issue. You sound like you are still in that similar cycle I was. You are saying you feel bad because you have 25 lbs to lose and even then won’t be thin. You sound discouraged and that will sabotage your weight loss!
You had a baby. You are a mom. You are busy and sleep deprived and hungry. Be easy on yourself. Take a diet break if you need to. Don’t kill yourself physically or mentally right now if you can’t. Give yourself permission to like yourself. To sleep. To eat. And not feel guilt.
Post # 12
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Busy bee
You sound really stressed out and I think you’re being too hard on yourself.
Yes, the baby fat sucks, but don’t define yourself by how long it takes you to get rid of it. You have created life and an awfully sweet one I bet. Focus on the positive things in your life. With sleep deprivation and not having enough hours in the day as is, please don’t get so upset about sth that simply needs time. So what if these 25 lbs need three months longer to disappear. It’s not gonna kill anyone, is it?!
try to be kind to yourself! While I luckily got rid of most of my baby fat, my tummy is a whole other story. And I’m sure it’s never gonna look like it did before (not that it would have won any competitions even before!). But when pregnant I read this really nice comment from a mum that said, the stretch marks are like tattoos of her children so she’s proud to wear them. Mind you, proud would def not be how Id describe my relationship with them lol, but I do see them as mark (haha) of what I have accomplished and looking at my daughter, it’s well worth it.
Modes it still suck that I won’t look the way I always dreamt of looking on my wedding day? Yes. But I’ll just do the best I can and try not to be too hard on me for not achieving more than I can.
Post # 13
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Bee Keeper
As for me, I’m back to the fat loss bandwagon after seeing the results of a boudoir photoshoot. I’m currently wearing a size 4 and still look like a total heifer with my clothes off.
