(Closed) Faulty human here; anyone else similar?

posted 6 years ago in Emotional
Post # 3
1564 posts
Bumble bee
  • Wedding: August 2013

oh I’m sorry you’re feeling guilty! That’s an awful feeling:( my mom has always told me don’t feel bad, just apologize and never do it again ๐Ÿ™‚

Post # 4
4605 posts
Honey bee
  • Wedding: March 2014

I don’t have any advice because I’m like you are. I’m insensitive ( I REALLY have to try to be nice), I’m not empathetic at all, I’m short tempered, impatient, antisocial, anxious, a worrier, disorganized. I’m really good at hiding my snark behind sarcasm. I’m honestly the most horrible people person ever. I don’t enjoy spending time with many people at all and pointless conversation annoys me to no end. In fact, I’m not sure that I’m even supposed to be human. Maybe I should have been a cat?

All that aside, while we all have negative qualities, we also have good ones and it’s important to focus on those.

For example, despite who I am, I can give good advice, I’m logical and I’m a walking book of useless and random facts, I can sing, I taught myself how to play the piano. All of these are things like I like about myself and when I think about it I feel better about my short comings as a human being.

ETA: My brain to mouth filter also likes to malfunction at the worst of times. If you’ve apologized for whatever was said, that’s all you can do. Don’t get it get to you.

Post # 5
872 posts
Busy bee
  • Wedding: July 2013

I do the SAME EXACT thing! O_O; 

I am going through exactly what you are right now….So…sadly I have no advice. 

I was beginning to think I was some freak of nature though. xD

Post # 6
926 posts
Busy bee
  • Wedding: November 1999

@smileyme:  You are describing my relationship to a T! My husband is pretty much perfect and I know I’m probably the dud, lol. Just don’t be too hard on yourself. Your amazing Fiance obviously sees some special qualities in you.. One of which is clearly the desire to better yourself. I know I’m a better person because of my husband and I’m sure you are because of your Fiance. Slowly but surely you will be the person you want to be ๐Ÿ™‚  Just take it one thing at a time, like maybe promising yourself to hold your tongue about his friends and family for at least a week.. Then a month.. Etc etc. It will give you some time to think about the consequences first before blurting things out

Post # 7
113 posts
Blushing bee
  • Wedding: March 2014

@smileyme:  OMG. I read your post and I felt like you were describing me! Girl, you are NOT alone! I get really down sometimes and start thinking about mistakes from YEARS ago and about all the things I’ve done wrong. It makes me sweat and stress eat really bad.

I don’t know if you have religion, I’m not a fanatic or anything but I pray about it when I start feeling REALLY bad or I work out. During my prayer or workout I just become really determined to do better and be better. My FH and my parents always tell me you can’t change the past and you can only resolve to do better next time. ๐Ÿ™‚


PS: your FH sounds just like mine! AMAZING! He’s a total keeper right? We are lucky ladies!

Post # 8
32 posts

I could have WRITTEN your post. You are not alone at all. 

I’ve been getting better though. Instead of making myself feel selfish, I hold on to positive feedback that I do get, especially not from my SO because I feel like he is obligated to say these things, and I reminds myself of the good things I do. No one is perfect and no one expects you to be or probably pays half as much attention to the shifty things you do as you.

Post # 9
1902 posts
Buzzing bee
  • Wedding: July 2012

This describes me perfectly – I will do and say things without thinking, I’m socially awkward, I have a short fuse, I get upset about tiny little things (I nearly lost it when fiance opened a Christmas present early!). I honestly struggle to see my good qualities sometimes – and sometimes my worst quality is that I can’t see anything good in myself and all I can do is sit there a wallow in what a stupid, useless lump of flesh I am.

But we do have our good qualities! I’m sure we do, otherwise these fantastic guys wouldn’t love us like they do.

Post # 10
1684 posts
Bumble bee
  • Wedding: May 2014

I think the best way to get over guilt is to recognize growth from it.  

I usually feel guilty over how I handle a situation until it occurs a couple more times, and I handle it better.

View these situations as learning curves and adjust.  You are only human and life doesn’t come with a manual Smile.  You definitely have to try stuff out a few times until you get it right, even interactions!

Post # 11
206 posts
Helper bee
  • Wedding: July 2011

I could have written this. And it’s reassuring to see so many bees say the same things. I like all the advice given. Thanks everyone!

Post # 12
9891 posts
Buzzing Beekeeper
  • Wedding: September 2012

@smileyme:   You’re already self-aware or you wouldn’t have written this post. 

From what you’ve said I gather a few things – you’re a good, kind person with an amazingly loving and generous heart.  How can I tell?  Because it pains you to think how you may have hurt anyone, ever, even unintentionally or inadvertently.  If you were a selfish or narcissistic person you would never have been able to write what you wrote. 

I’m sure your Fiance adores you completely, “flaws” and all, as you adore him.

Don’t be too hard on yourself.  You may be the kind of person, like I am, who “thinks out loud” and sometimes the thoughts pop out without a filter.  Work on building up a filter, but also give yourself a break about it.  It seems clear your Fiance isn’t offended by you and loves you for who you are.  We all have faults and flaws.  The good news is that once you recognize your own faults you’re on the road to growth and healing.


Post # 14
9891 posts
Buzzing Beekeeper
  • Wedding: September 2012

@smileyme:   I’m so glad I was able to help a little.  We’ve all had things pop out of our mouths at times we wish we could take back.  The important thing is being aware and apologizing immediately.  Sooner or later you’ll catch yourself before  something regretful pops out, lol.  ๐Ÿ˜‰  And that is a really great feeling (I know it well having honed my filter for years now).

Post # 15
140 posts
Blushing bee

You’re not a scorpio are you? haha.. I’m the same exact way.. or should I say was.. I would go off at the slightest thing.. Horrible temper. Then I got into natural medicine and realized that anger/guilt and any other negative feelings affect your body.. then I went further into exploring yoga, meditation and other metaphysical stuff. It really has helped. I watch what I say and don’t sweat the small stuff-as much. It’s hard to break old habits but I’m much better than I was. It just feels good to be positive vs a negative nelly

Post # 16
6019 posts
Bee Keeper
  • Wedding: September 2017

@smileyme:  I am the firey one in our relationship as well. I can really spit venom at times and have MANY instances where I have cringed thinking back to the things I am capable of saying. Its like if certain emotions are triggered, things just fly out of my mouth and its too late. I have a tendancy to go straight for what I know will be most effective, meaning I know how to hurt someone or stun them enough to shut them up and when im pushed even just a little, I go in for the kill. Its not a great quality and its caused me lots of guilt in many situations. I have to remind myself that whats done is done, I apologize as best as I can and I work everyday to keep myself in check. It’s a struggle always. But with the support of Fiance and those who love me, I have been able to become a much better person in general and I actually take time before I speak and can usually talk myself down from being a complete jerk. I feel  your pain OP

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