- 6 years ago
I have been dealing with some emotional issues and I felt this message board may be able to help..
First of, I do not fully understand the cause to my such low self-esteem. Maybe it was my childhood and having such a strict father and passive mother…but they were both still loving and nurtured me. I have dealt with my low self-esteem since my teens. Always trying to sell my self to others which would only lead to selling myself short. I settled for the wrong men, got hurt and was pretty pathetic growing up…but I still believed I was strong and confident. Lies we sell ourselves…
So, let’s fast forward to present time. I meet my Fiance who is gorgeous and fall head over heels, he does the same. Helps me get over a lot of stuff. I should mention that to other peoples standards Im not bad looking, have curves…but when I receive a compliment I wonder if people are talking to me. All this has led to my CRAZY jealously issues and horrible self-image. I am at the end of my rope…I feel horrible anxiety when a hot girl walks by when my Fiance and I are out. I just assume he checked her out and is judging me against her.
I can’t watch television anymore because all the half naked gorgeous ladies on the screen. If he goes to work I assume his coworkers are incredibly attractive. I know everything I think is wrong and out of line because he is obsessed with me and shows it, but I still find myself ruining things …a lot of times I am just left crying and feeling so dumb for everything I say and do.
Anybody ever go through this or can offer any advice?