- 4 years ago
- Wedding: June 2015
Some of you will know that I write books, and a few weeks ago I uploaded my first book to Kindle.
It’s actually not the first book I’ve ever written, I’ve been writing for years and have about five novels under my belt, but I never thought they were good enough to share. But this one, I really loved, and I finally felt like I was ready to share it with the world.
For the first few days, it erupted. Everyone in my family and friends circle bought it and told me they couldn’t wait to read it. Several of them promised that they would post reviews and come back with critique for me.
Since then… total radio silence. I’ve had one close family member who’s told me it wasn’t her thing but it ‘wasn’t all that bad for a first try’. But that’s it. All the other people I know who have read it have just gone silent. I have had no positive feedback whatsoever.
I know I’m probably (definitely) being impatient, but I’m starting to really doubt myself as a writer. I’m scared that even though people have read it, it was so bad that they don’t want to hurt my feelings by telling me, but can’t bring themselves to praise up something that’s awful.
I’m trying not to let it get to me and just let things progress naturally, but I picked up a copy of my book last night and read it – and even though just a week ago I thought it was good, I found myself second-guessing every word and wondering if it was just as bad as I feared. I’m not going to go chasing people for reviews, nor am I going to kick up a fuss, but I am starting to wonder if I should write another or not.
I guess this is just a rant. There’s not much I can do and I know that, I guess I just wanted to know that there are others out there who have doubted themselves sometimes, and see if any bees can offer me any encouragement to help me remain patient.