- 6 years ago
i have been waiting for a long time now. SO is in the process of applying to lots of police jobs, and has been since october. as any other bees who are in law enforcement or have SOs in law enforcement know, getting a police job is a very long, drawn out, and exhausting process.
one of the stipulations SO has about us getting engaged is that he has to have his “real” (police) job first. and i get that. he is being very responsible. but at the same time, i’m starting to feel like maybe he just isn’t sure if this is IT and is using this job thing as an excuse to buy more time.
he has also said before that he would want to wait until the probation period for his police job is complete. for police jobs in our area, that is TWO YEARS. i get that it makes him nervous that they could fire him at any time for any reason for the first two years, but, really, that’s just how the majority of jobs are.
and a little salt has gotten rubbed in the wound when he told me that our new friends (our neighbors) will be getting engaged soon. they’ve been dating a year and he’s going to pop the question. i feel so happy for her, and i know that every couple moves at their own pace, but it’s hard to look at their relationship and see that the neighbor guy, who only has a part-time job, is making it happen for his girlfriend because he knows she is the one, while my man is dragging his feet.
like i said, i know he is being financially smart, i’m just sort of at a loss here, because i feel like if he really wanted to make it happen, he would. my father was in traction in the hospital for 3 months when he proposed to my mom, but he still made it happen.
all this is highlighted by the fact that we are traveling to visit his entire family next weekend, so i know that all of his aunts and grandmother will be asking about when we will get married.
does anyone have some comforting words/words of wisdom for me?
thanks for reading, girls.