- 7 years ago
Sighh. Today, I am just overwhelmed with an onset of depression in regards to my wedding. It’s not “that” time of the month, so idk what’s up. Basically, I feel sad because nobody wants to go dress shopping with me, among other things. I am not the type of person to hound people about things. I’ve asked-several people- and made plans to go dress shopping and they all forget/back out at the last minute. For three weeks, this has been going on. So, I’m done. All I want to do is go to a consignment shop ten minutes away. I have never been the kind of girl to stand around and deliberate over things in the store, either. If I like it, I’ll try it on. If I don’t, I won’t. It would probably take all of 20 minutes to select a wedding dress, I’m not kidding. I’ve written about this here before, but nothing has changed since.
I feel like giving up on the whole thing, right now. The whole wedding thing, I mean. I am also really anxious/antsy because I have a year to go and I can’t do everything all at once, but I have all of the ideas in my mind. I cannot stand having great ideas and not being able to act on them. I don’t have the money until Aug. 29th to reserve my venue. So, I’m hoping and praying it doesn’t get taken while I’m waiting.
I can’t talk about my wedding because I know (from experience) that it is annoying to hear about someone’s wedding 24/7. Yet, it’s all I think about. I’ll throw in a comment here or there, but everyone’s absolutely obvious disinterest (including FI’s) has just discouraged me from taking it any further. I find this particularly hard to deal with because anytime something big is happening in someone else’s life I am genuinely interested and happy for them, and want to be involved in every single way. I don’t really have any girlfriends to turn to, so I’ve come here to vent about my current emotional state.