- 4 years ago
- Wedding: September 2016
Just to let you know, there’s going to be SO much TMI going on in this post. I know everyone says that but I really had to think about this one before posting.
So I recently started having pains in my side and just an overall uncomfortable feeling, especially when my bladder was full. I had to run to the bathroom to pee because that was the only way to ease the pain. After a few doctor’s visits and tests, I was told I have a 6cm cyst on my right ovary. I had to wait until after I had my next period to go get the size checked again. I thought to myself… okay, no big deal. But when I went to a different gynecologist (the first one I saw was in the ER) after my period, he had told me that the cyst is the same size it was before. It’s good because it didn’t get bigger but bad because it’s not going away and due to its size, I’m probably going to have to get it removed. However, the gyno advised me to wait 3-4 months to see if it goes away on its own. Even after he told me there’s a risk of cysts bursting or twisting, I didn’t think much of it.
He then decided to do a pap test just in case and, low and behold, he tells me I have an outer cyst on the left size of my vaginal wall. That was my breaking point… I almost cried. Now I have something on the right AND left side, on the inside AND the outside of my lady parts.
This is where my issue began. I just started feeling like I’m damaged somehow… like there is something really wrong with me/it’s my fault that I have these cysts.
I know this is silly on some level because I realize that cysts are common… but they’re not common for ME. I’ve never had gynecological problems until the past year. In september I had to go on antibiotics while battling a nasty case of strep (the test came back negative but I’m positive that’s what it was) and that caused me to develop a yeast infection. I didn’t know this at the time and thought I did it to myself somehow but, after talking to the pharmacist, I realized it’s a pretty common side effect when you’re on antibiotics. I didn’t know this as I have never been on any before.
A few months after that, I managed to get a UTI. After some antibiotics (which I didn’t end up finishing), the UTI went away but came back a month later and I had to take even more pills. This was two months ago and everything was getting back to normal… until now.
I just don’t understand why after 24 years, I started getting all these gynecological problems. I know things could be worse but I can’t help but feel horrible about myself. My fiance is so amazing about the whole situation and he makes me feel so much better about everything… BUT I still get the “what’s wrong with me?” feelings.
Sorry if this post was super long. I just wanted to see if anyone has ever had a similar experience… especially with cysts of that size. I really want someone to reassure me that these cysts can go away on their own and that I didn’t somehow do this to myself. Talking to the gyno was nice but he sees women like me every day, so he’s not the best at pretending he cares LOL.