Post # 1
My husband and I have been TTC for 20ish months. We got pregnant in October on our third IUI but it ended up being ectopic. My numbers were low (about 1100) and there was no visible sac anywhere so I was treated with methotrexate. On Wednesday I had a horrible pain and rushed to the ER. They took their sweet time leaving me in the waiting room for 2 hours bent over sobbing in pain. After finally receiving an ultrasound, they saw my left tube had ruptured and I was bleeding into my abdomen. They were unable to save the tube in surgery 🙁
Yesterday I felt so happy and grateful. I know how dangerous everything was and I was (and am) happy to be alive and grateful I can still get pregnant. But today I feel so depressed every time I look at my incisions. It was part of my reproductive system taken from my body. Part of what makes me a woman. Another thing infertility has stolen from me. Another part of my body that has failed me. I feel like this journey is never ending and literally every “worst case scenario” that we’ve been presented with in the past few weeks has ended up happening.
Just needed to rant 🙁
Post # 2
Omg. I am so so sorry. That is so traumatic, and just another hit in this process for you. I really hope you get your sticky bean soon. Thinking of you during this difficult time <3
Post # 3
can you just go straight into IVF in the future? With 1 tube i wouldn’t risk anymore with another IUI.
Post # 4
I believe that’s the plan, we meet with our RE next week. Hubby and I agreed not to talk about having another baby for a few days so we can just process, but I will be telling him I need to move to IVF, this has been so traumatizing.
Post # 5
I’m so sorry you lost your babe and your tube. What a traumatic experience – definitely take some time off to recover mentally and physically.
IVF sounds like it is definitely the way to go – your DH will understand I am sure.
Post # 6
I’m so incredibly sorry, bee. What a horrible experience you have been through! I have also had one of my tubes removed however, mine twisted and nearly ruptured when I was 15. Of course at the time I was not TTC so my main concern was that at some point in the future, I could still have children. While I am still not ready for a baby, I have had only one tube for over a decade and my reproductive system has continued to function as my doctor said it would. I can only imagine how difficult and traumatic this is for you right in the midst of your baby journey and I wish you and your husband all the best. Sending lots of love and healing to you during this time.
Post # 7
- Wedding: June 2018 - England
i am so sorry this happened to you. It must have been awful, but if it’s any consolation, my mum had an ectopic pregnancy and went on to have 4 children including un-identical twins!
Post # 8
My heart goes out to you. It’ll get better. Be kind to yourself.
Post # 9
Bee im so so sorry. Iv been there & it is extremely traumatic. After about 15 months ttc with a lap & dye my end and supplements & lifestlyle change for dh we finally conceived naturally. We were over the moon only for me to be rushed to hospital at 7+5 weeks after a ruptured tube . I lost 2.5 litres of blood & had 4 blood tranfusions and was told i was very lucky to be alive. Absolutely devastating.
We quickly moved onto ivf but unfortunately we discovered i was a poor responder to stims so i had in quick succession 2 cycles cancelled, then 2 chemicals from my fresh & frozen transfer. Moved clinics and a further cancelled cycle and then a natural ivf cycle (collected just the 1 egg i was ovulating that month) and here i am 16+2 weeks pregnant. I feel so so blessed but ill never forget that precious soul we lost but im grateful to be here and to finally be expecting.
There are some good support forums you can seek out which helped me enormously to continue to have hope that ill still have a baby but to also know its ok to grieve not only for your loss but the loss of your tube. Im so sorry your going through this but it a fantastic sign for a successful ivf that you have conceived via iui.
Post # 10
I’m so sorry! That must have been terrifying and so traumatic! Big hugs to you. Wishing you a speedy recovery
Post # 11
I’m so sorry. 2 hours in the waiting room is f-ing ridiculous, just adding insult to injury. Stay strong and be well.
Post # 12
So so sorry Bee. Sending you peace comfort and strength
Post # 13
I’m so sorry! What a crappy string of things you’ve had 🙁 I hope you recover quickly and that IVF is a good solution for you. Hugs <3
Post # 14
I am so so sorry Bee. You have been through a truly traumatic period and I hope both you and your husband have a good support system around you as you get through this. Take all the time you need to heal and give yourself lots of grace. I hope you get your rainbow soon ❤️
Post # 15
- Wedding: June 2015 - Backyard
How terrible! I am so sorry you had to go through all that on top of infertility struggles, it is truly unfair! Hope you can take some time to rest and heal.