- 8 years ago
- Wedding: September 2012
Man, I have just had a bad week when it comes to my self esteem/self worth. 🙁
– I wrote a group email on Friday to a bunch of ladies that are coming to my wedding next weekend, (its out of town) a few days early like me. I asked if they wanted to have a girls night while all the guys were out for my FH’s Bachelor Party. Not a single person has gotten back to me.
– I have made multiple calls and texts to people the past week and 99% of them have gone unanswered and no one has yet to call me back.
– I invited my friends to my bachelorette party on FB, because its sort of last second, but no one has responded on there either. I see them making posts on FB, so I know they’ve been on, but they wont just take one second to click “yes”, “no” or “maybe”. So, its now 2 days until and I have 0 people coming. I understand that since its last minute that people will probably have plans but it still makes me sad that no one will take one second to respond. So, I guess its just gonna be me and my Maid/Matron of Honor. Which is fine, but I just wish people wouldnt leave me hanging.
– My original bachelorette party fell through b/c my Bridesmaid or Best Man that said she was going to plan it ended up deciding not to. (my Maid/Matron of Honor was going to plan it, but the Bridesmaid or Best Man insisted that she wanted to do it. So, she let her) 3 weeks ago at my shower she said it was going to be on the 8th and then she ended up making plans on that night after the fact. And since she couldnt go to it anymore, she just decided to not plan it instead of contacting my Maid/Matron of Honor or myself. Luckily my Maid/Matron of Honor called her the other day and found out and took over, but it still made me feel like I was very low on the other BM’s priority list. Like, “Oh, I’ll only do something nice for you if nothing else comes up and its convenient”. Not that I should be number one on her list or anything, but I personally always place my friends high on my priority lists, especially if I promise them something.
-I work from home and all of my coworkers work out of state. So, I am alone for more than half of my day and never really have anyone to talk to until my FH gets home. So I already feel lonely enough on a daily basis without all of this happening.
And I don’t know, I’ve just always had this problem. I always go out of my way for my friends and I do so much for them above and beyond b/c I love to do that for people. For example, for Bridesmaid or Best Man gifts, I bought them shoes and custom designed and hand painted each one based on their interests. And each pair took me 8 plus hours to complete. I could of just bought them something really quick and have been done with it. But I wanted to make them feel special. And it just feels like no one is ever willing to return the favor or just give me the time of day. This isnt just with friends either. For my bridal shower/birthday party, my Maid/Matron of Honor invited all of the female Future In-Laws and none of them came. My FH and I always go to their events/parties (there is one every month practically) and everyone in the family attends them. But, I finally have one major event for myself in the 8 years I have been with my FH and none of them show.
And while my Maid/Matron of Honor is going out of her way to give me a great night this weekend (and I am eternaly grateful that she is), the pile up of stuff this past week is just making me feel depressed. 🙁 And I shouldnt feel this way so close to my wedding, which makes me even MORE depressed lol…