- 2 months ago
Me and my SO have been together for 2 years now. He got a job that requires him to travel out of state for 6-8 weeks at a time with about 2 weeks home, then back to work. It is a repeat schedule over and over. Me and him live together and I could not be happier about sharing a home together, but when he is gone it makes hard to be alone sometimes. The house feels empty and quiet from the first day he leaves. Everything shifts and I dont know what to do to not feel so down when he is not home. I more recently got a dog for some company but it only fills up so much. I find myself losing interest in things and just feel in a slump. It is a constant cycle of feeling “normal” when he is home and feeling disconnected from everything and loney when he is gone. I do not have much of a social life right now, I have lost contact with most of my frineds over the past few years. So not being able to get out and hangout with friends can make the situaion even harder. I am either at work or at home alone. I used to love to read and do a lot of hobbies but now I can’t find interested in them like i used to. I try and do something but start to get distracted and find myself becoming bored. I notice that I feel anxious when he is away and nothing feels the same with him not here. He misses out on a lot when he is away at work and it is hard. It makes me sad knowing we are physically missing out on so much of eachothers lives. We both are in our mid twenties and love eachother very much and trust eachother when it comes to being away from one another. We talk on the phone every day and text when we can and it helps but sometimes those text/calls can feel distant in itself. It can be a lot of the same conversations like “how are you” “how did your day go?” which I love to know but it can just feel repetative everyday and makes the distance sink in even more. I try my hardest to stay strong and positive but i cant help let the distance get to me. I notice that we both start to bicker over the pettiest of things from just miss eachother and wish we were together. I wish there was some way to have more of a “normal” feeling life when he is gone. I think back to before I met him and being alone never bothered me! I enjoyed it and never had a problem with it. Shortly after he came into my life he started to travel and was gone more then he was home and now i feel like I dont know how to feel normal alone. It gets to the point where i have trouble sleeping. I am not afraid of being home alone i just miss him and his company. Does anyone else feel this way or go through the same thing? How do I start to feel more whole again when he is away?