- 4 years ago
- Wedding: June 2012
So, I am 21 and married. We own a house and are very happily married. I just quit my job at the Police Department, where I was a Certified Police Officer. I quit because we moved to a different city and it would have been like a 2 hour drive to work. I loved being a police officer, but after much consideration about having a family i decided that law enforcement is not the best career choice. Being a woman would be hard, i would not be able to work on the road at all while I was pregnant and then afterward I don’t really want to put my family into that type of danger. Obviously I am not getting pregnant anytime soon, im just trying to think about the future. So, i want to go back to school, but I have absolutely NO IDEA what I want to do 🙁 I thought about Nursing and I have applied for financial aid and everything, but i don’t know if that is what i truely want to do. Obviously financially it’s a good decision. I feel like crap, because my husband is a Paramedic who is working 3 jobs to support us and I am only babysitting, because after 7 months of applying to every restaurant, grocery store, walmart, target, etc. I had no luck with finding a job. I was finally fortunate enough to find a family that wanted me to babysit for, however the money sucks until January. Even then it’s not an ideal salary. I guess im writing this, because i need some assurance that I am not a complete loser and this feeling is normal. 🙁 I just feel so bad, I feel like I am not contributing at all. My husband understands that I don’t know what I want to do, but it still makes me feel like a loser because he went into school right after he graduated and never changed his major. I guess he was one of the smart people who actually knew what he wanted to do for the rest of his life.