(Closed) Feeling envious and sorry for myself…

posted 6 years ago in Waiting
Post # 3
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Bumble bee
  • Wedding: September 2013

I don’t have any words of wisdom, but I can totally see where you’re coming from. Maybe you should sit down with you SO and have a heart to heart about what you would like to see happen with your relationship? Etiher way, I sorry you’re sad. Hugs!

Post # 4
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339 posts
Helper bee
  • Wedding: February 2014

Yes, I’ve felt this way before. The day after I found out  I felt so much better about the whole thing and I never let on to my friend that I was having a pity party lol. In fact, I asked to see her ring, asked if she was going to start planning right away, and I just pretty much got over it.  

I think you will, too…especially if you’re not accustomed to being envious. It really sucks feeling that way and knowing that you should be happy… but I think that’s what ends up making you get over it if that makes sense? You’ll probably snap yourself out of it. Some people are always envious and don’t think about it much. 

 

In the meantime, just talk to your SO about what’s going on with you two! Maybe you’ll feel better if you just know for sure that you’re both on the same page or at least headed in the same direction… 

Post # 5
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307 posts
Helper bee

Aww, sweetie! I know this feels terrible..a lot of us have been there (I sure have)! You still have us! 🙂 I think I say the same thing all the time so you may read this elsewhere (but of course I still fall into the wedding fever trap every once in a while anyway).  It is completely NORMAL for you to feel this way and that is OKAY! It’s nothing to be ashamed of. I think it is important to acknowledge your feelings and allow yourself to feel them.

You aren’t quite where you want to be right now. At this point, it might be good to take a step back and reevaluate the things that are in your life – not to make any decisions but just to have a clearer picture of what is important to you. Try to do this when you have some peace and quiet, somewhere calming. What does marriage mean to you? What does family? Having kids? Is your SO the person that you want to engage in those things with or is he just the person who is in your life right now? 

Then you may want to talk with your SO about these same topics – he says he isn’t ready but you don’t quite know why. Perhaps he has a different idea of what marriage is/should be. I wouldn’t bring up your desire to get married during this discussion. The first step is to gain understanding – sometimes this is where the disconnenct begins and not always what you want to hear.  If this is important to you, however, it is important for you to start forging more communication about this instead of bottling things up.  During these discussions, I would refrain from too much pressure on him until you get a better idea of what is going on.  I think that pressuring guys only makes them wait longer and the process more unpleasant.

Hang in there! Hugs!

 

 

Post # 6
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Sugar bee
  • Wedding: June 2010

No words of wisdom, but plenty of hugs and empathy.

Your response is a totally human one. You can be happy for someone but still sad at the same time.

I have certainly been there.

Post # 7
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Newbee

I am in a similar situation to you, OP.

My SO and I have been together just over 5 years now (our 5th anniv. was two weeks ago). I’m probably just a bit younger than you. Since our 5th anniversary, I’ve been very down and concerned.  I have been waiting for the right time to have another discussion on the topic, because I feel like if I do not, my resentment will only escalate.  The last time we discussed it (Dec.), he “wasn’t ready.” Part of it stems from some concerns about having a child, and we’ve been talking through those issues.  I’m not wedded to having a biological child; adoption is an option for us, so the ticking clock isn’t as terrifying as it would be for some women.

We’ve talked about marriage but it seems like I bring it up. I have assured him that I just want a very low-key, small ceremony on the beach or something similar, with just immediate family. Neither of us want a big shindig that requires a lot of $ and planning.

Right now, I really feel like I need a firm timeline.  The issue of us not being married comes up more and more in talks with family, especially my dad who I am close with. I am never the one to bring it up, and I always have to choose my words carefully and explain to my dad that SO and I have been “talking about it…”  But we’ve been “talking about it” for years now…

The resentment is what’s getting to me, and the thought that he has to know the anxiety that I am experiencing.  I’m getting to the point where I am doubting the relationship and his commitment.

I picked up a good book recently called “His Cold Feet” which includes some helpful words to prompt discussion with your SO.  Now *I* need to use them in another chat with SO.

 

Post # 8
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2695 posts
Sugar bee
  • Wedding: February 2008

OP – I am guessing that after 6 years, and at your ages, you are going to have to decide how important marriage is to you. Because if your SO wanted marriage, and wanted it with you, he would have made it happen by now.  I am guessing that he is never going to be “quite ready”.  I only say this because instead of letting others get you down about your situation, you could decide to take charge of it – let go of wanting marriage at all, force the hard discussion or move on.  But any of that is better than just waiting and being sad!

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