Post # 1
Sorry to vent, but anyway yesterday I was worrying and slightly complaining about the fact that my boyfriend hasn’t proposed yet. I slept on it, and realized I was just being immature and that I had no good reason for wanting him to propose sooner than his timeline, other than being impatient and feeling inadequate for not being married yet. But I’m young and there’s really no good reason for me to be so impatient.
Anyway, he’s going to Los Angeles for a day and now I’m feeling SO guilty for taking him for granted and complaining about his timeline. I feel like something is going to happen to him in LA, God forbid, because I took him for granted, almost as cosmic “punishment” for me. Before you judge, I do have an anxiety disorder (diagnosed, not self diagnosed) and so these thoughts are pretty typical for me even if they’re irrational.
Anyway, no advice needed…just wanted to vent and apologize.
Post # 3
@pictureaccount: Vent away, I know how you feel. I have the same problem and felt that way for a long time before he actually popped the question. I waited 3 1/2 years!!!!!!
Post # 4
Let go of the guilt and try to spin it positively- I am always grateful for those special moments when I realize just how blessed I am to have my SO!
Post # 5
I know how you are feeling when it comes to the guilty feeling! My SO travels for work and on the days where I find it hard to “wait”‘ I try not to let it ruin our day because I always worry about him when he is away and I know I wouldn’t want our last conversations to be about why he hasn’t proposed yet! (God forbid!!)
I also agree with PP, the days where you realise how lucky you are to have your SO are the best days, engaged or not 🙂
Post # 6
@Sweetescape1976: Well, I’m waiting longer than you but judging by your SN I’m younger than you so I’m not sweating it TOO much. If I were in my late twenties I’d be more impatient.