- 5 years ago
- Wedding: October 2013
On Saturday when the 2 week mark hit, I turned into an emotional train wreck. I’ve been planning the wedding for the past two years and now that it is at 2 weeks, I feel more lost than ever. I cry because I don’t want the planning to end, I cry because I’m leaving home for good and I won’t come home every day to my mom and dad, I cry because I don’t feel like my fiance understands the importance of the wedding (I know us girls blow it out of proportion, and I cry just because I can. I’m picking apart everything that’s “wrong” including my body, etc. This life change makes me sad and its scary. I want to get married, but I feel like I’ve been so excited in planning this that I’ve never let my emotions come to face. I haven’t moved my things yet, I still have some last minute things to do for the reception, and I just feel so blank-minded. It will be here and I don’t feel like I have enough time. 3 weeks seems like a little bit of time, but 2 weeks is a Holy Cow moment. I’m telling people that our wedding is NEXT WEEKEND! After a 2 year engagement and 6 years of dating, saying this is just numb to me. It’s uncomprehendable.
I guess I’m not asking a question, more so just venting. I will become excited, but I’m already sad that it’s “over” even though the celebration hasn’t happened. I know that the marriage is larger than the celebration and there will be so much coming our way to be happy and excited about. I know it’s not just about the wedding.
I’m just sad and somewhat in shock that it is next weekend.