- 4 years ago
- Wedding: July 2013
My doctors appointment was today. It was just to ask the doctor to refer me for an early scan, that was all. I know i am pregnant, they dont test us or do any other checks etc they leave all that to the midwives. All i asked for was an early scan.
Instead i ended up having an argument with the doctor and left in floods of tears with absolutely no chance of an early scan.
I told her my history of m/c and that this pregnancy happened without a period inbetween the last m/c, she called me stupid. She called me fat, told me i was way too heavy to have a baby. (i was on weight watchers but my leader couldnt let me continue once i fell pregnant, she advised me to just eat healthily at home and i should stay around the same weight throughout my pregnancy which is just as good as losing weight) the doctor told me i should never have gotten pregnant at this weight and told me i should get back to the weight i was in 2004 … when i was 14. I know im large, i know im unhealthy, i know how disgusting i must look to other people but i am still a human and i have feelings. I asked the doctor to be more polite to me and she told me that she was the doctor and she could tell me whatever she wanted to and i deserve to be treated like this, she also told me to expect this treatment whereever i go.
Am i wrong to think that this treatment is unacceptable? I am very overweight and am used to being treated horribly for it but i am still a person with feelings and she really hurt mine. Its one thing to say ‘try and eat healthy and not put too much weight on’ but its a whole other thing to say ‘lose weight or lose your baby’ and also that i ‘shouldnt be having children’.
I would love to be a skinny person!! I try my best, i have lost weight recently but obviously it isnt good enough. I am so sick of people berating me about my weight, i know how i look and how much i weigh, its not like i look in the mirror and see a supermodel. Might just go crawl under a rock now!!