- 6 years ago
- Wedding: July 2012
So my Fiance and I are getting married in a month. I’ve been having some really bad nausea over the last few days (to the point of vomitting), feeling super tired, etc. Basically, most pregnancy symptoms you can get (except for sore boobs).
Now, we both are carriers of a recessive blood disorder that we have a 25% chance of having a baby with the full blown condition. Apparently now it is treatable and no longer fatal but it is still no way to live. We decided that when it comes time for kids, that we will go the IVF route because the doctor will only implant the healthy embryos. If we did it the natural way, we would have to wait until 13 weeks to have a test to see if the baby was positive for the disease. If it was, we would most likely be advised to terminate. I’m not comfortable doing that hence the IVF decision.
Ok, so my point is, I took a test today because of all the symptoms. It was negative, which is what we were hoping for. In addition to all the medical stuff, we have a ton of issues with my FI’s career and possibly moving cross country in the next 18 months. All in all, a colossaly bad time to bring a baby into the world.
Now, my rational side is glad I’m not pregnant. But the irrational part of me is kinda disappointed. I mean, we love each other and are getting married. We both want babies. So a baby now wouldn’t be the end of the world…just horrid timing.
Is it normal to feel that way?
Edit: sorry for the novel. It was longer than I thought