- 5 years ago
- Wedding: November 1999
ive posted about this before and added pics, and was reassured i was crazy. but i am getting more and more anxious about my dress.
i had Future Mother-In-Law come over tonight to help me put my dress on so i could see how it hangs with the shoes i bought recently. its been hanging in my closet for about a month now. first dress fitting is scheduled for late august.
turns out the dress is the perfect length for four inch heels, which is the height of the shoes i got. well, most ppl would be happy about that, but i had been hoping to wear a petticoat. the dress is too short with both the petticoat and the four inch heels, so i guess i wont be wearing it underneath now. thats a waste of $75. :/ most people dont like it with the petticoat anyway, so i guess its for the best.
this is very hard for me to admit, but i am feeling nervous and regretful. im finding myself thinking about the other dresses i tried on and wondering if i should have gone with a different gown. one more flattering to my figure, one with a more smooth fit. then that makes me want to cry. i chose the dress because i loved the sample on me and it was the best dress in photos but there were still reservations i had about the fit. the consultants assured me my concerns would disappear when the dress was fitted specifically to my measurements, and i believed them. well, im not happy with the fit at all, so now i just want to cry.
the spanx i bought is not flattening my tummy like i thought it would. and my boobs spill out of the bust alot even tho i ordered the dress with an extra inch of bust coverage. i feel fatter every day but i know i cant complain about that, as i am hovering around 135. id like to lose 10 lbs but i dont see it happening since im exhausted from work every evening already. i only have three hours after work to have dinner, do chores, and relax before i have to go to bed to do it all over again.
i dont know. i guess ill have to wait for alterations….maybe some miracle will happen? i dont see where it can be taken in much, its pretty tight as is. maybe its just my body being a weird shape and not the dress, i dont know. or maybe its all in my head. i dont want to regret my dress, but i cant help feeling VERY apprehensive and nervous that it will have to look like it does now on my wedding day. when i think about walking down the aisle as the dress is now, i start crying! what do i do?? im not considering buying another dress, by the way. i just dont like how it looks in the mirror or in pictures anymore.
just me venting, thanks for reading and giving any advice or being able to relate.