- 9 years ago
- Wedding: December 1969
I’ll spare you the boring details, but sufficie it to say that my realtionship with the Boy has not been the easiest. We have had to deal with a lot (not caused by either one of us). Lately, I have been feeling completely overwhelmed due to the shear volume of everything that I have had to deal with to be with this man.
There is the crazy exwife, legal custody battles, two job lay-off’s, the Boy not setting clear boundaries with people, and the list goes on and on. It seems like every little thing that comes up now bothers me more than the one before. His BFF is a girl and I just saw a photo of the two of them togteher and I wanted to blow a gasket, although I know that she’s totally harmless.
I find myself being totally cranky with the Boy, snappy, and just feeling really sad. This, naturally, causes conflict between us which just makes me feel even worse. It’s really hard because it’s not just one thing it’s the total sum of EVERYTHING that is making me feel this way. I am going to talk to the Boy about it tonight, but I know that it will be hard for him to understand since it’s not just one thing (and he tends to do better taking one issue at a time).
He’s also started to act weird, like doing things (which I mentioned in another thread) like snooping in my private messages.
I know that all relationships are ups and downs and that we’re kind of stuck in a rut right now, but I really don’t know how to stop these feelings. I want to spend the rest of my life with him, but when I think of everything I’ve been through this year it makes me wonder how on Earth we’ll make it. And that just adds to my feeling sad.
Anyway, I just wanted to vent…