- 5 years ago
- Wedding: May 2015
Ugh. I’m in my last week of the semester at grad school, and somehow I’m suddenly feeling really down about the waiting. There have been various hints that my SO is probably planning something for this year, recently, and he knows what sorts of rings I like. But I’m stuck here at school away from him until it’s done at the end of the week, and somehow with us wedding talk is awkward, even though we have agreed we want to get married and have a tentative timeline. I really want to talk to him about it, but kind of feel I should avoid doing so, as we have talked about it a lot in the past. Plus we have our first vacation in a whole year coming up, in which we are going to a place that is very special to both of us. I can’t help but hope it will happen during the vacation, but I’m getting very cynical. . . probably partially a result of forcing myself to NOT get my hopes up. Blah.
Here are the hints, at least what I have convinced myself are hints:
-Talking about and agreeing on when we will probably get married (2015 sometime)
-Him being very interested in and admiring of diamond rings when we went into an art gallery
-A fair amount of talk about what kind of stone I like (he asked me)
-Him consenting, after a bit of pestering, to let me send links to rings I like to him (which I, of course, promptly did!)
-Him asking very detailed questions about the stone size of my RHR when I got it
-And finally, the least convincing, but still odd thing– lately when I’ve said anything about looking forward to our vacation (not mentioning anything about engagement), he’s gotten quiet and distant, which is weird for him when talking about going away for fun, especially to where we’re going.
I guess when I lay it out like this, it sounds pretty good, but I’m just sick of waiting and wish that, if it’s going to happen, he would do it already. 🙁 Plus two of my roommates are leaving next week to go to weddings. Uggggghhhhh.