- 6 years ago
- Wedding: January 2013
Yesterday was Mother’s Day and I’ve had such a rocky relationship with my mom.
I really don’t have a close relationship to anyone in my family, besides my father. I’ve felt like I’ve been cut down a lot. I had a very hard childhood. My mother was emotionally abusive to me.. I guess I still hold a lot of resentment towards her.
I have never received any positive support for any of my accomplishments. When things are great, they disappear. When things are going bad for me, they are there to say “I told you so” and it wears on me.
I feel like I have to constantly defend my self to everyone if they question anything about me. I feel like I need to try my best to get the approval of the people that I am close to, even if it wears on me, mentally/emotionally. It’s one of my flaws that has stemmed from my childhood.
I’m getting married in less than two months and nobody in my family has been involved or has shown much interest.
My Future Mother-In-Law is the one who is footing most of the bill and planning my shower.
Is it silly of me to be upset that my mother hosted a huge baby shower for my sister, spent so much on catering, and has shown ZERO effort to me and my big day? On top of it, I had to convince them that they should be at the wedding (fiance and I had a falling out for a month, but got back together).
Arggghh.. I just don’t have a supportive family. I’m just being a baby and venting. I should just relax. LOL