- 5 years ago
- Wedding: July 2014
Before I explain, I am not seeking advice nor am I looking to be told to cheer up. I am simply here to unload some negative feelings I’ve been having and perhaps comiserate with other women who’ve felt like I do. I don’t want to talk to any of my close friends or family because I know they’ll tell me I’m crazy. I just want some support.
So I’ve never been the sort of person to look for anyone’s acceptance. I’ve always marched to the beat of my own drum. I’ve been on the hunt for one, a bridal shower dress and two, a dress to wear while I am getting my hair and make up done before the wedding/the dress I’ll be photographed in before putting on my wedding gown.
I’ve never had “real” body image issues. In fact, I’ve pretty much always been underweight and pretty accepting of my body with the exception of having days where I feel bloated or like my thighs could be smaller. I went bridal shower dress shopping with my sis in law to be a few days ago. She tells me how great I look in everything and has been supportive and wonderful. Today I went with my mom and she was more critical about dresses on my body than I think she’s ever been. (ie saying “this is too big on your bust” “this is too small on your bottom”) She mentioned going to Neiman’s or Bloomingdale’s (as if I haven’t already tried on my own to find a dress at department stores) and I needed to remind her that almost no one carries a size 00 or 0P and everything I tried there looked awful on me.
She’s not one to ever make negative comments about my body so this caught me a little bit off guard. My selection of dresses are small due to my measurements and having a shorter torso and small build/bones. I’m already feeling like I’m not going to find anything in my size and my mom shot down everything that even remotely fit me. On top of that, my Future Mother-In-Law is a bit critical, too about whether a dress is pretty or not. I feel like those girls on Say Yes to the Dress who have every dress they like shot down by their family members. I am trying to please people and I know I should get whatever makes me happy.
I don’t understand who I’ve turned into during this wedding planning process. I was so sure I wouldn’t be affected by anyone’s opinions but my own and here I am feeling sad over a stupid dress. I even feel like there is something wrong with my body. I don’t know if this is normal or not but I just feel sad.
Has anyone else been feeling irrationally sad? Is it just the pressure from wedding planning?
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