- 7 years ago
This past week I’ve found out two of our friends are pregnant and an additonal ex-friend is getting married. Everyone we know either have kids or are married and I’m trying so hard to be patient but can’t help thinking WHAT is wrong with Me? The woman that got engaged is not a very nice person who is known for lying and sceaming and even She got engaged and is set to be married early next year!
After all his talk about settling down with me it’s just silence now, not a beep. So I asked him straight out yesterday if it’s important to him that we get married and he said that it’s not as such and if something happened where we couldn’t it wouldnt’ change fi we stayed together or how our relationship would be but that he would like to get married. But not a word on when or if he wants it soon or anything. I think he understood that I got upset after hearing again how someone we know got engaged and says how he wouldn’t even think about that stuff if he wasn’t with me. Well that’s great but to be honest I just don’t get him at all! He’s so weird lately.. first the ring stuff, sizing and now all of a sudden he just doesn’t even seem to want to be around me. He doesn’t look at me even when we speak about marriage, he’s being so akward and gets so weird about it. He gets nervous when I mention anything as if he regrets all the things he’s said lately.
I don’t know what to do and I just don’t want to hear that people are getting engaged and having babies anymore as it just hurts too much, and I don’t like being this way, I want to be able to feel happiness for my friends and nothing else but it’s so hard when I want it so bad myself 🙁