- 6 years ago
- Wedding: October 2013
So if you read my previous posts, my SO is planning to propose in 2012.
The last few days have been very hard on me however. Propably due to creeping PMS which seams to turn me from sane to crazy LOL
My SO got really busy at work. He is a VP of a company and one of his strong people had resigned for a better opportunity. Which left my SO overworked and with not so good looking next few months due to finding someone and training etc… which really put a damper on my thoughts towards his plan. I figured that he won’t have the time to plan anything that he wants to with engagement and i was scared of the fact that our timeline mey be broken.
Due to this ofcourse my resentment towards him grew and since I promissed to myself not to talk about engagement and stuff…. well we all know what happens if you keep things bottled up for a while. So we were fighing about everything but what i was upset about LOL even faught about the dog. geez love the hormones! I went from angry to happy to sad to crying. Thank goodness he only saw the silent me and angry me, cuz he wou;d have been running LOL
So last night, since my PMS left the house I felt a bit tired and just needed my bear back. So when in bed iwe cuddled and forgot all the silly fights. And just hugged in silence. Then I wanted to simply say: “Please don’t forget about me the next few months” but the exact moment i was opening my moouth to say something, he said: “I promise I won’t forget you, i just need you to be patient”. I then said: “I am just worried that you wont’ have the time to plan anything that you want to plan and we will have to push everything past this year” He then said: “It will happen this year, I’ll make time so don’t worry”.
So in just few words he had lifted a huge weight off my head and calmed all the worries i had.
I guess it was a perfect moment to say it and it all came so naturally. I am really happy and today i feel very light with thought and with a plan that I’ll leave it up to him cuz I know he can handle it. I trust him 🙂