- 6 years ago
- Wedding: January 2013
I’m so bummed, bees! Just need to whine a bit.
So, I live in Alaska, and due to the recent flooding we’ve had (governor has declared state of emergency in several cities) 60 hunters were stranded in the wilderness near Denali (Mt McKinley). My FH and his best man went to go help them, since the troopers already have their hands full with more urgent flooding matters, and I’m home alone and upset.
I have pretty severe anxiety and he happened to leave during a phase of frequent anxiety attacks, which doesn’t help at all. This is also the first time we’ve been apart overnight (he’s been gone three days now) since we moved in together over a year ago, so I’ve been having a hard time dealing with being alone in our house, which is very secluded and huge so the creepy factor is pretty high when he’s gone.
Also, and this is the part that is upsetting me the most, the area he’s helping these people in is a no-reception zone, so I haven’t spoken to him in two days, except for relayed messages through his BM’s wife (BM has a sattelite phone so he is able to call his wife). I know that using a sattelite phone is ridiculously expensive, something like $2 a minute, but I really wish he would have called me himself instead of relying on BM’s wife to relay the message, since it turned out she didn’t even have my number so I didn’t get the message until I called her to see if she’d heard from her husband…a day after I was supposed to get the message.
I’m so grateful to be with a man willing to go out of his way to help people in need, but being without him, and especially not being in contact with him at all, is really taking a toll on me. Plus, sleeping in a bed alone sucks!!
Sorry about the whining, but I really needed to get it out and I thought you ladies might understand better than my single girlfriends, haha. Thankfully FH plans on being home late tonight, so I won’t have to spend much more time alone, but I’ll defintely be counting down the hours until he’s back!