- 4 years ago
- Wedding: September 2014
So my FI has always dealt with depression, undiagnosed, since before I knew him. He had a hard life. No Dad, Mom just doing the best she could. On his own since he was 17. He is turning 31 this year and is completely at the end of his rope. He is stuck in a remedial job he hates. He was up for a great managerial position at a big company and was doing so well at his interviews. He requested less hours at his current job in order to ready the transition and he was getting ready to go to finally enroll in an associates program at our local community college. Things were looking up for him. For the both of us, I was going to leave my day job and focus 100% on completing graduate school and we had plans to move to another city when I finished my program.
He just got the news that he didn’t get the job he wanted and I am so scared for him. He told me today someone caught him crying at work. AND HE NEVER CRIES! And this was before he got the news! AND THIS DAY IS NEVER ENDING!
He was so happy and excited. He was excited about the wedding and really happier with his situation then I had ever seen him.
As the situation is RIGHT NOW, he is on his way for reduced hours at a job that is literally making him sick (emotionally, causing physical pain), no prospect for another job (I am encouraging him to keep looking) but he is steadfast that he wants to continue planning to go to school, which I am happy about.
I just need some good vibes, bees.
I want this day to be over so we can both be home and I can be there or him if he needs it. He is so sad right now and it is killing me.
UGH this day is NEVER ENDING!
He is all depressed at work right now and as much as I am trying to remind him that he cannot sulk in the negative, I understand it’s a big blow to him right now and it is natural to want to have a pity party. Hell, I will put on the hat and pitty party with him, cause that is what I signed up for when I said “Yes”.
I just wish we were home so I can hug him.
He wants to talk about the logistics of our future. I fear that he wants to postpone the wedding, but really, the wedding is irrelevant right now.
I just want a Healthy and Happy Hunnie Bear.
ETA: AND….it just started raining. Do I have an umbrella? No? Does he have an umbrella? No…
This is just wonderful