- 5 years ago
- Wedding: June 2014
If anyone has issues with blood, stop reading now.
So on Monday, fiance and I were being intimate. I felt something odd – not painful, just pit of my stomach wrong. I ignored it. BIG mistake. A minute later, I thought to myself ‘wow, we are seriously sweating…it must be roasting in here’. We realized something was wrong and hit the lights, and it was a scene straight out of Carrie. Blood everywhere and no signs of stopping. Visit to the doctor showed I had a ruptured fibroid. Apparently, it chose that particular moment to burst and bleed everywhere. They took care of it, and the ultrasound showed no additional.
What’s freaking me out right now is the thought that there was a quarter sized mass growing in my uterus without my knowledge. And bursting. Horribly. And right now there aren’t more, but there probably WILL be more in the future. The thought of being intimate again has just raised my blood pressure and heart rate. What if it happens again? I don’t want him associating sex with my hemorrhaging all over the place! When I think about it, all I can see is the aftermath.
Obviously, I’m not looking to be doing anything in the next few days or anything like that! But I can’t keep being terrified. I’m 31 years old. I’m way too sensible to be freaked out. But I am.