- 6 years ago
- Wedding: October 2012
Ok I’m right in the middle of all things wedding.
Staritng school up again in a few weeks.
And having issues with my dog digging in our rental home.
Our land lady found out from the garden and got mad and told us to fill the holes and stop her.
She had not dug in forever but after they came and mowed the lawn she dug again and they found the holes from the first week.
So I was super scared we’d have to move or let our dog go – and Fiance would most likely make us get rid of her first snce she’d dig somewhere else -n- evictions are not good.
Went and picked Fiance up from work- its been stressful sharing one car too!
I had a major head ache and I never get head aches! but I think I had some heat exaustion from doing a lemonaid stand with the kids I nanny for 4 1/2 hours.
So Fiance I wasn’t being extra sweet and I just lost it.
I went out side and started sweeping the holes and cutting long grass with the sizzors and filling in holes with lots of grass and just trying anything beacuse I knew the mowers where coming today.
It was dark and I couldn’t see anything but I’d just lost it.
So then I came in and it all went to peices I just started crying and he said ok let it all out and I just started naming off everything from the dog- to not having a ressisional song- to issues with photographers- to the fact my mom bought a new dress and his mom can’t- to issues with my dad not helping pay-
and then I’d stop and he’d say what else and I just let go of every thing even if it was calling his sister a fat piggy- and his best mans girlfriend a bitch- sometimes when you just hold it all in you loose it- and he just laughed cause he knew it wasn’t coming from a hateful place its just coming from a stressed out place. but he just held me and let me get it mostly all out for about a good half hour then he put me to bed and held me till i fell asleep.
This morning I just chumed up the mowers so hopefully they won’t tell my land lady. I asked them to keep some of the grass long for her to lay in since I think that will help keep her cooler – hopefully!
and they said they could get in trouble so if she asks say we mow our own lawn and so they won’t tell on us and we won’t tell on them- they told her about a big hole not about the little ones- and we’ve got that big hole filled so hopefully that will help I d. ! but
I feel a little better not that there is not still tonz of stress as I am sure most you brides know and get..
oh and I am a 2,500 budget bride so makes it a little more stressful for me.
but I just wanted to share that my Fiance is wonderful and weddings are stresfful
and encourage other brides to let go and talk it out!