- 5 years ago
Hello ladies! So I’ve read all of these posts for a few months, looking for some support. I decided it’s time I finally reach out and join the conversation. My decision to join the conversation coincides with my recent decision that either my boyfriend proposes soon, or I’m done. Patience is a virtue (hence my chosen name), and it’s one of my greatest weaknesses. But, I have been quite patient, and my boyfriend has even told me so. My patience only lasts so long, however.
I do think it’s coming soon. Well, correction, I hope and pray it’s coming soon. Because I’m about at my wits end and can’t really take it much longer. (He has continually set deadlines that he has not met – a girl can only handle that so many times).
I’ve gotten myself in trouble recently by asking too many questions. Essentially, he felt like he had to tell me the plan because nothing else would comfort me – then he couldn’t follow through with the plan because it was no longer a surprise. He felt jipped out of something he was so excited about and had put so much thought into.
So – I joined this site because I need to make a pledge to others in my position that I will keep my mouth shut! To him, to friends, to family. People ask me about this literally every day. His friends ask him about it literally every day. And every time someone asks me about it, I get the pity eyes. It all just makes me feel stupid and foolish. This process is supposed to be fun and exciting. I’m not having fun, I’m feeling out of control, helpless, and a little mix between angry and sad. So, I am not waiting much longer, and he knows that. But, while I wait, I really need to zip it. And I need your support!
Thanks for listening 🙂