- Wedding: April 2013 - ceremony at a gazebo outside, reception at neighboring restaurant on a lake
Emotional eating was a problem for me too. I even started feeling so guilty about my binges that I threw up a couple times. I decided to go to therapy and started with “mechanical eating” and then transitioned into “intuitive eating”. It is a method that teaches you to listen to your body and identify if you are eating for any reason emotional (anxiety, stress, trying to focus, boredom, comfort, ANYTHING) or if you are actually hungry. It took a year to get completely comfortable with it, but now I can say I am an intuitive eater. I eat healthier foods because I WANT to, my portion sizes are half the size, and I have lost 20 lbs. I was originally 147 lbs, and now I am 127. I wasn’t overweight before, but I was eating large amounts of low calorie foods during the day and then binging on high calorie at night and exercising to compensate (and threw up only twice).
Often people think that if they are not purging or restricting that they don’t have an eating disorder, but the thought process is the problem behind most disordered eating and you have already successfully identified emotional eating as one of your issues!! I strongly recommend therapy and reading the book intuitive eating. It may be slow weight loss, but the results are amazing.
My life before: I felt uncomfortable in my clothes, I felt shame, I thought about food or about my weight at least 200 times a day, I obsessed about the way my body looks, I compared my body to others, I felt depressed and more anxious. I never EVER EVER in a million years thought I could trust my body. I was always afraid that if I let go of trying to control my intake that I would balloon up 100 lbs. I felt obese at heart but that my restricting and exercising was the only thing that saved me.
My life now: I could cry thinking about the freedom I have in my mind now, I am not tied to food emotionally, it only sustains my body not my feelings, I eat healthier, my intestines are happier, I never realized how much better my stomach feels now that I don’t binge, I’ve lost weight, I feel more confident, the pride in treating my body right has postively impacted every aspect of my life. I don’t have to think about food because now my body tells me what it wants. I 100% trust my body to tell me it wants protein or fruit or water and I still have some sweets each day but I can recognize if it is my body or emotions and my body keeps me from going overboard. If I start to eat too much sweets (usually 1/2 cup ice cream IS enough or 100 calories worth of candy) I start to feel sick. AMAZING. My body can actually guide me and my mind can let go.
Message me if I can be of any help to you. I understand where you are coming from and you can get better! There is light at the end of the tunnel, I promise!! It isn’t about self control, it is about learning to respect and trust your body to tell you what it needs. I hated myself before and now I love me because I am learning to respect me.