i will try to make this as short as possible. I was engaged to my ex for a little over a year when things went south. After getting engaged, he went through some issues (family, drugs/drinking) and I felt he changed too much for me to marry him. He canceled a big vacation we booked so that he could go to Europe for 5 weeks and “get his mind together”. His vacation included lots of partying, but he said it was to visit family. It wasn’t, at least 4/5 weeks didn’t include visiting family. I didn’t even hassle him, I figured it was what he needed and he said we would set a date once he returned..(we held off on setting a date because of the “issues” he went through). I waited about 2 weeks after he returned to ask him about setting a date. He went off on a rant of how marriages are a “sham” and a “waste of money”. I ended the engagement. He asked for his ring back, I gave it to him.
Fast forward a year, he wants to get together. I made up an excuse even though deep down I want to see him. I don’t know why, because I feel that his actions were basically a slap in the face. Maybe I’m just stuck and hoping he’s changed..(he’s 38). I’m 30 and I don’t want to open closed doors for no reason, as I don’t want to waste more time on a relationship that is going nowhere. I spent all of my 20’s w/ him. I have a lot of frustration towards him bc I felt like I was strung along. I am a caring person, so I thought giving him time away would help us. During our last phone convo he mentioned he’s going back to Europe all of August and September. Should I see him and give it a shot or leave this door closed??