- 7 years ago
- Wedding: November 2011
I really honestly and truly do not like my fiance right now. I put so much work into this wedding, so much time and effort and get told basically to stop micromanaging evertything. That it will all fall into place, that everyone knows what they are supposed to be doing. Blah blah blah…really. If thats the case why is it when I ask for feed back or take it upon myself to get things done does no one appreciate my efforts. Oh wait…thats right, it’s only our wedding.
No big deal, if shit goes wrong shit goes wrong, if certain things dont get done then they dont get done. It’s okay…It’s only one of the more special days in my life. I’m supposed to cherish and love the memories right? So what if I dont get to hear the music I want or get to have the people I love the most there with me. As long as everyone else is happy thats all that matter right?
So what if I take the time to plan things out when no one gives me any guidelines. Who cares if the priest doesn’t get back to me at all about anything. So I have to harass he rectory to get a rehearsal date, then plan the damn dinner myself because no one has taken the time to call me and ask what dates are available for me and my fiance. And then get told after the fact that it sounds too expensive. Oh wait my inlaws arent footing teh bill. I AM!!!
I’m working overtime and killing myself, giving up weekends and nights so that no one will have to pay out of pocket for my wedding!!! We only work two jobs a piece and he goes to school full time. We’ll just work around everyone elses schedule like we always do. I’ll pay for everything.
So my Maid/Matron of Honor and BM’s havent given me an inling of plans for shower or bachelorettes. I dont want them anyhow, but i sure as hell hate surprises. I have OCD, am a type A personality, a recovering alcholic with control issues who does everything within her power not to alienate or inconvenience anyone becauseor inspight of my own faults. Why in the name of all that is holy can’t anyone in my life extend me the same courtesy. I absolutely right now want to turn into that which I hate the most. A bridezilla! I’m this close to telling everyone to go directly to hell, including my Fiance.