- 5 years ago
- Wedding: August 2014
Im so tired of the waiting game, and the teasing. Like he will get my hopes up and then let them drop, and im tired of it. There is nothing i want more then to be his wife, and i don’t being it up anymore because, whats the point right? I also feel like the laughin stock of his family, i made these little programs for our wedding that will happen someday, i just got bored so i screwed around on powerpoint and they actually turned out super cute, so of course i was really excited and i wanted to show his sister, well his sister and her husband just kind of chuckled at each other and said they were nice for my imaginary wedding and how theyre not real because my wedding doesnt exist, I felt horrible and embarrased so i put them away and said not much else for the rest of the night, His family is always teasing me about this. and his mom knows that i know he has the ring so shes like why dont you just give it to her “R” i mean she already knows..why dont i deserve a big proposal..like just because i know about the ring doesnt mean i deserve the whole shebang! im just so irritated, because i get excited about marrying her son, they think its all i think about and tease me all the time..i hardly ever bring it up. So I dont know maybe im reading to much in to it but im getting sick of it. Its to the point i dont even care about the damn ring or proposal. Its not fun anymore, whats going to happen when we do get engaged are they going to tease me then to???? “oh well i bet “h” is happy” and “its about time now she can shut up” and blah blah blah…i just want to scream! im having a very very bad week, i havent slept in days and i have no one to talk too. My best friend is never around because shes planning her wedding and getting married in july and my other best friend has 2 kids so shes always busy..i just want to run away and go on vacation by myself for 2 weeks..maybe its what i need.
sorry for the rant bees but it needed to come out somehow….