- 6 years ago
- Wedding: March 2002
I’ve been reading some TTC/Infertility/PCOS and IVF boards on here, but i have to admit they are all way over my head. There are so many abbreviations and i havent a clue what any of them mean. I find myself staring at them trying to come up with their meanings, but im just lost. Lol.
A little history – i got my period on my 10th birthday. TEN! annoying. through out middle school, whenever i got it – i was able to stay home because it hurt SO bad. high school was more serious, so i wasnt that lucky to stay home lol. when i was 17, my then boyfriend (now an ex of many) and i got pregnant but lost it at 10 weeks. i went through a menstral extraction to make sure i had passed everything and wouldnt get any infections. when i was 19 we broke up blah blah.
I had always had super heavy periods and super crampy. I was on 7 types on birth control (even was on ortho tri when i got pregnant in high school) and nothing really regulated me. between times and periods with my severe pains, doctors told me they were cysts bursting, kidney stones passing, appendicitis – i may have heard it all. but nothing went away and nothing showed anything after a million ultrasounds.
When i was 19, my pains got so sharp out of no where that i had fell on the floor and just fainted. two days later i had a laporoscopy and was officially diagnosed with endometrisos. That didnt fix any of my pains so i took my pictures and went to see another Dr (who i still use now) and found out that the first surgery wasnt exactly done to the full extent, that my scar tissue wasnt completely removed. I was also told about my options and given advice to have a hysterectomy! AT 19! NO THANK YOU. Seriously, all i have EVER wanted in life – was to be a mommy.
Fast Forward to NOW – i just turned 25. I went 11 months without a period and every HPTest was negative. my hips hurt. sex hurt. i got shooting pains up in my spine and through out my pelvis every day, so i went to my dr – ultrasound showed imbalanced hormones and severe PCOS on both ovaries. my ovaries are the size of a giant chocolate chip cookie when i guess they should be the size of an almond. they are surrounded like bubble wrap and strings of pearls with these cysts – so no egg can escape and no sperm can get in. thus, not being able to get pregnant. my doctor put me on metformin feburary 1st along with provera to force a cycle, so i got a period at the end of feburary from that medicine. i was late in march but did eventually get it on my own without provera – my last ultra sound april 9th showed no change. so i was told to start an ovulation kit. so far, im not ovulating.
i am getting SO frustrated and sad. it is LITERALLY wearing me out. my Fiance and i are getting married in august, and we both want a child so bad. i am trying to take the right steps now, so its possible for me to get pregnant. i know a child of any way would be such a miracle, but if i can get pregnant myself.. oh how id love that.
ive been wanting to call my Dr all week but shes out of town so i need to wait. my Fiance and i are looking into all adoption information as well as surrogate information. but when i try to find up about IVF i am just over my head because it is so broad. i thought here might be a good place for some direct advice and experiences. its the end of april so i am waiting for a cycle – and assuming ill see my doctor again the first or second week of may, in which she talked about starting chlomid then.
but im really just wondering. what about IVF. im not ovulating, whats that mean for me? all of you bees that are also infertile, ttc and/or using IVF – i would really really appreciate it if you could just fill me in. what was like it for you? what was some good support? what were the steps that you had to do and take?
im sorry this is so long. i am getting so discouraged wondering why God gave me this deep desire to become a mother and get pregnant if he isnt going to fulfil it. i know i have time. but it just seems that now i know it is going to be a rough and long road, i want to do what i can now to increase any chance i have when its time.
thank you <3