- 6 years ago
I think it is literally going to kill me. So far I have rheumatoid arthritis and fibro myalgia and I am only 24!!! I cannot wait for him to propose to me!!! It has only been about 11 months, but I CANNOT WAIT. Why do men talk about wanting to marry you and then wait forever to propose? Don’t they know women start planning the wedding as soon as the L word pops out?!! I wish I could stop obsessing because we are fighting so much now and I am mad and sad all the time. I almost can’t think of a moment when I am not about to start crying or having full fledge tears running down my face. I have a headache at this very moment from crying all night long and trying to hold back tears this morning. I know most people would say that if he is making me cry this much he isn’t worth it, but this isn’t the case. I am crying so much because I am going nuts.. I want so badly to be proposed to. I can’t understand why he taunts me with the idea. We have gone and looked at and tried on rings, we have searched online… we talked about a promise ring once but that idea was short lived… I’d like a “shut the hell up, pre engagement ring” that would be nice…. at this point anything to help me get through would be nice… I am afraid that if I don’t stop he will dismiss the idea all together and let me go. He means the world to me.