- 6 years ago
- Wedding: December 2012
I wasn’t sure where to put this post this. So, Wellness it is.
Good news about the day:SO asked my dad for my hand in marriage. 🙂 It went extremely well; they had a nice lunch and they really bonded. My dad talked to him about the difficulties, but rewards of marriage. In the end, he gave him his blessing. Now the last step is for the proposal. B. was so excited after he talked to my dad. It was like he was on Cloud 9! I originally thought the proposal was going to be Thanksgiving weekend, but the way he’s been acting, it might be sooner. Only time will tell. Yay! 🙂
Now the bad news:I’ve had knee pain since high school. I’ve played sports almost my entire life. Softball, cheerleading, cross-country, bowling, volleyball, etc. Anyway, I ignored the acute pain when I would play any sport or just generally exercise, and I was recruited for the bowling team for my school. This entails staying in shape on my own, but also going to practice 5 days a week, and tournaments are 4 days long, typically from 8am-7pm.
Well, last year, during the second season, my right knee couldn’t take it anymore and gave out. Originally, the orthopedic surgeon determined it to be severe chondromalacia (patellar maltracking), a meniscus tear, and early stage of osteo-arthritis. However, pain killers failed to work, and even though physical therapy helped me gain strength to walk again, my condition remained chronic.
Eventually this week, I just couldn’t take the pain anymore. I went back to the ortho surgeon, and I told him that I can’t do this. FIX ME. DO SOMETHING. I’m too young to be in this kind of pain! Dr. re-examined my leg thoroughly, re-examined my MRI’s, and determined that I have severe chondromalacia co-morbid with quandriceps tendonitis. The tendonitis is so bad that it’s inflaming my joints and causing my tendon to just build scar tissue.
The good doctor proceeded to tell me that while I don’t need surgery like originally thought, it ends my career as a NCAA athelete. Bowling is a prime stressor in my disease, as well as other factors, so I have to “shut down” the activities immediately or the stress could tear my tendon. So he put me on another pain medication and more PT. If it doesn’t work, he’s going to set me up with a Pain Management Specialist. Tendonosis of my chronic nature doesn’t have a cure, just removing activities, resting, and hoping some pain medications work. 🙁 He also suggested partaking in the Anti-Inflammation Diet, and swimming as exercise.
I feel like I let my team down. Granted, I’ve helped win 2 championships since being on the team, but I still feel bad. But I’m tired, and hurting. I would feel worse if my scholarships were at jeopardy, but my undergrad and graduate degrees are paid for.
Really, I just want to be pain-free again. I’m in so much pain, Bees. 🙁
Sorry it’s so long. Just had to talk to someone.