Post # 1
She died a few days ago. We knew it was coming but not as quick as it did. I guess knowing helped with some of the grief, but it’s still hard. People keep telling me she’s in a better place and I guess I know this. She went in her sleep and I know she’s not in pain anymore. But (and this is the selfish part) I want her to still be here. I keep looking at her chair expecting her to just appear in it and it would be back to normal. I won’t even let the cat sit in her spot right now. I know it’s crazy and selfish but I was really close with her and miss her so much.
I haven’t cried alot yet, so i’m trying to avoid the meltdown I would most definately have at the funeral, by getting all of this out right now.
I’m crying as I type so I think its helping to get it out. Thanks for letting me vent bees! It’s been a sad few days.
Post # 3
I’m so sorry for your loss. Crying will help to get it out, for sure.
I wish I had advice for you but I don’t…. I will keep you in thought/prayer, though. ((HUGS))
Post # 4
I’m so so sorry for your loss. I think it’s completely normal and expected for you to want her back. It will get easier in time, just keep telling yourself that. My heart goes out to you!
Post # 5
I am so sorry to hear… i don’t think it’s selfish that you want her there it’s natural to feel that way.
Post # 6
@MissCallieJean: I am so sorry for your loss. It’s normal to feel selfish and want for our loved ones to stay with us here on Earth. Your Grandma will always be with you in your heart and soul! Hugs!!
Post # 7
I am so sorry for your loss. It is always hard to lose someone you love. Even when you know in your head that they are in a better place or tried to prepare for it your heart still misses them. I will be thinking about you and your family over the next couple of rough days you have a head.
Post # 8
Oh hun, you’re not being selfish. I think your feelings are totally natural and valid. I’m very sorry to hear about your grandma.
Post # 9
I’m so sorry for you loss. It’s never easy. You’re not being selfish. Take the time to cope in any way that you need to.
Post # 10
I’m so sorry! My FI’s grandma just died a few weeks ago and I just sat in his lap and told him that it was ok to cry and he did. You are not in any way being selfish! You and your family are in my prayers.
Post # 11
I’m so sorry for your loss. I know how hard it is.
My father passed away in Nov. He’d been sick for a while but we thought he was beating the cancer and then he just went really fast.
I still have moments where I scream that I just want to talk to him, see him.
It does get better….but right now it’s ok to scream, cry, whatever you need to do.
Post # 12
Thank you all for your kind words. I really appreciate it. 🙂
Post # 13
I’m so sorry for your loss. Pretty much the exact same thing happened with my grandfather in November, and I felt the same way. I love my Papa so much and I didn’t want him in pain anymore but I want him so much. I want him in my life. I want him at my wedding. I want him so desperately. I still cry about it sometimes. For a month I was a hot mess, and for about two months after I was a warm mess and just this week I went for an entire week without crying about it for the first time. It’s not selfish to miss someone and want them to stay with you, even though it feels selfish. It’s just that you love them.
Post # 14
I’m so sorry:( Last June, I lost my Grandma, and it was really tough for me too, since I had just gotten engaged, and she never even saw a picture of my dress. Not having her at the wedding caused me to cry at the funeral home – until an Aunt mentioned that she will be there, looking down from heaven.
Post # 15
I am so sorry for your loss. 🙁 You’re not being selfish at all!
Post # 16
You’re not selfish, you’re human. These are normal feelings, you’re not alone in feeling them. I’m so sorry for your loss, my dear. <3