- 7 years ago
- Wedding: October 2011
It all started when I went for my bridal makeup trial. I had no idea what to expect and it took much longer than expected. I wasn’t sure I liked what the girl had done (the foundation was extra heavy and the eye makeup was anything but natural looking). I felt so pressured to get this look and wasn’t sure what to do (buy it all, don’t buy it, buy some)… so I bought a majority of what the girl had used and this all cost me way more than I had in my budget (meaning I never budgeted for wedding makeup assuming what I owned would be good enough).
So tonight I’m getting all ready for an actual date with my Fiance. We rarely go out any more and mainly only for wedding-related issues. So I decided to give my ultra fancy wedding makeup a try (since I’m now too damn tired to wear makeup on a daily basis). FI pops head in bathroom and says it looks “brown” when asked for thoughts about the new makeup. Brown?? I thought the foundation matched my face pretty well… Next comes the nail in my coffin…the damned fake lashes. The lady made it seem so easy! After 30 min of getting glue all over my eyelid and in my own lashes, my expensive fake lashes looked like they’d seen WWIII and were lucky to have any hairs left. I lost it. I washed all the makeup off and decided looking like a dude was fine since going super girly apparently is not my style any more. We were about to be late for our movie and I sat down on the bed and started bawling. I have no one to do my wedding makeup and spent a bundle on makeup I can’t use…if I buy the makeup girl for the day that’s another expenditure I can’t afford….I want to look amazing on my day of and now what…?
I actually kicked my feet a few times and threw myself back on the bed in tears while Fiance watched, awestruck.
I was corralled to the car and cried the whole way there, the makeup disaster having lead the way for a downpour of emotions about every little thing that keeps going wrong. To make matters worse, it seems like our families and bridal party could care less so I don’t even have anyone to vent to! Our caterer is still not lined up. I don’t have anyone to help me with all the girly stuff (dress, hair, makeup, shoes, mani/pedi). We are totally strapped for money. How will I afford to have my hair and makeup done? My parents are MIA and I always thought they’d be there for this stuff. My sis is too busy with her life to notice mine since I’m just the little sister. People aren’t RSVP’ing. We have way too many people for the church and I have no idea how to ask people to go to the reception only at the last minute. It’s only like 5 weeks away!!!!
Maybe someone will read this and give me some advice (unless it’s “Calm down, it will all work itself out” or “You have PLENTY of time, don’t worry!” My coworkers give me that all day and I think it’s so I won’t go postal!)