Post # 1
Hello bees! My Darling Husband and I are currently on our second cycle of TTC, and man, did I have a doozy of a freak out last night about it! The first month of BC was not too fun, and I got worried towards the end that I wouldn’t ever get my AF (ended up being a 35 day cycle). When I finally did, there was a mix of sadness (darn! not preggo!) and relief (I think now it was relief that my cycle wouldn’t bee too crazy). I think I felt so guilty about the relief that I worked myself into a tizzy of OMG! I shouldn’t be having a baby, why do I feel relieved, should I really be doing this, etc. I know it sounds silly but I spent most of yesterday just FREAKING out and telling myself I should be taking trips, I shouldn’t be having kids this soon etc. etc. My poor Darling Husband came home to a crying, inconsolable wifey… I kept insisting I should go back on my BC… Luckily, he has more sense than I do, and calmed me down. He reminded me how excited I’ve been over the whole idea of a baby, that this is good timing for us, that he will be there no matter what, and so forth. He’s the best.
But GOLLY, I didn’t expect to be quite this emotional ove the proces. And I sure didn’t think I’d go off the rails and decide to just STOP. Lol! Did any of you ladies have second thoughts throughtout TTC?
Post # 3
Yup! Still happens to me about once a week 🙂 I usually don’t have a full-on freak out, but sometimes I make myself stop and think about how everything will change and it starts to get to me. I think questioning yourself is normal. If it’s not, then we’re all insane!
Post # 4
@MrsCarnival: Lol always good to know I’m not the only crazy one out there 😉 It’s funny how something you can be so incredibly excited about can also just make you go OMG WHAT AM I DOING?!
Post # 5
You’re not alone 🙂 I already AM pregnant, and every now and then I wonder, “Can I really do this?” but I am blessed with a very supportive partner & lovely friends, as well as my crazy Bee-pals. We remind each other that yes, we might be a little cray-cray, but we’re not alone in our insanity. We embrace it, and each other, and know that when the time comes hopefully mother nature will kick in and everything will fall into place.
Post # 6
We’re just starting our second cycle of trying and I definitely have doubts about whether it’s the right time or if I’m even cut out to be a mom at all. I greeted my first AF with a mixture of disappointment and relief. But I just think about how much my Darling Husband wants to be a father and how excited our families will be, and how I’m going to love the crap out of any babies we have and then it’s all ok.
Post # 7
This makes me nervous. We are going to start trying next month and I am getting nervous that I will drive myself crazy every month until the seed is planted. 🙁
Post # 8
I completely get it. We have been trying for a year. We got pg on our first round of clomid and ended up having a mc this spring. We are Ttc again after a slight hiatus. I am on clomid and I completely freaked out a few days ago. Kind of a be careful what u wish for feeling. I started imagining that I would get pg with anywhere from 3-8 babies! And I panicked. It is te first time that’s happened to me. Ttc is a roller coaster no matter what .
Post # 9
I’m already pregnant, and I’ve still had a few moments like this! I was thrilled when I got my first positive test, and then later on that day I was standing in the shower fighting off a panic attack, like “OMG, this is actually happening. Life is going to change so much. What have we done?!?”
I think it’s totally normal when you make this decision, and normal again when it actually happens and you realize “Okay, I’m going to be somebody’s mom. I’m going to have a three-month old baby at this time next year. Whoa.”
Post # 10
@DiamondsandLace: Yep – agreed! It is hugely scary! But also wonderful & exciting etc! I have been on an emotional whirlwind since getting pregnant with moments of doubt, like can I do this, can I be a great mum?
But I think the love you have for your baby overshadows all those worries!! So don’t worry about worrrying, OP 🙂
Post # 11
Oops, I didn’t get any reply message, I promise I haven’t been ignoring y’alls very helpful responses!
@DaneLady: I do hold on to the thought that mother nature will kick in! I bet when I see the line my hormones will go bananas and I’ll get excited! 🙂
@iheartnerds: I think the same way about my DH! I think of him and how truly incredible of a father he will be, and it definitely eases my mind. My sisters and SIL are beyond excited about the thought of a baby, so I know they will help!
@Mrs.Jansen: Oh, don’t be nervous! If you do start driving yourself crazy, you can PM me and we can freak out together 🙂
@Wispy: I’m so sorry about your mc!! But [email protected] 3-8 babies, maybe you could get your own reality show, right? 😉
@DiamondsandLace: Oh yeah, I definitely am having a hard time wrapping my head around the thought of me as ‘mom.’ It’s just such an abstract thought at the moment, doesn’t seem like it could ever be real! Also, congrats to you!!
@Mrsluckywife: Thank you! I feel so much better this week, hopefully my next TWW experience won’t be quite so dramatic.
Thanks so much ladies, I really do appreciate the feedback!! I’m having a better week now, and the PMS hormones are settling, so off to cycle #2 I go 🙂 What a ride!
Post # 12
@dramabean: Yep. Totally normal, I think. We’ve been trying for a year and I say to dh all the time that I totally needed to be the one who gets ku by surprise just so I don’t drive myself crash with all the overthinking about the changes, and the money and “what if one of us dies. I don’t want to be a single parent”. And then I’ll be sobbing because the fact that it’s taking so long is clearly a SIGN that we’re not meant to have kids…. Bat shit crazy right here.
Assuming you’re a kindperson who has their basic affairs in order and will love the kid, I’m sure you’ll be just fine!
Post # 13
@DiamondsandLace: Ditto to the tee. I’m 14 weeks pregnant and still have these freak out moments!