- 8 years ago
- Wedding: November 2012
Before Christmas I hoped like any waiting bee does that a ring might show up by the end of 2010, but my SO confirmed that this wouldn’t be the case but assured me that he’s not far off the E word and it would happen in the next 6 month. This led me to decide to zipped it (unless he mentioned anything wedding related).
I felt totally comfortable with this situation and KNEW it wasn’t a throw off. I didn’t secretly expect a ring under the tree and in some way I enjoyed knowing that I could just get on with the holidays and let him get on with proposing when he was ready.
I was fine, honestly fine with the thoughts going through my head. No stressing/wondering/questioning. Well at least less than normal (!) Then out of nowhere 2 days into 2011 and BOOM! I feel like waiting fever has hit me harder than I’ve experienced it so far.
By The Way, (been with my SO 2.5 years, living together for 2. He’s 29 and I’m 26, knew he was the one for me about 3 months in but started seriously “waiting” when I joined WB)
I promised myself that I’d never reseach anything wedding related (outside the waiting boards here) until we were engaged. My reason for this being purely because I wanted to embrace the whole experience without feeling like I was putting the cart before the horse. Needless to say I’ve crossed a barrier I’ve never been passed in the last few days.
I’ve googled rings and venues and have considerd telling him he could use my diamond drop necklace to turn into a ring. (I’m not going to suggest this though as I know he wants to pick the ring without ANY imput from me)
We agreed that by Christmas 2012 we want to start TTC and I want to be married before then so a wedding would need to next summer. and now I’m suddenly freaking out that if he takes much longer to propose then I won’t be able to choose anywhere for our wedding venue.
It doesn’t help that now we’ve passed 3 Christmases together even my laid-back friends and family are starting to ask when its going to happen. Its SO annoying. Please don’t ask me if I’m engaged yet. Trust me if I am, I will let you know.
I know we are getting closer, I can tell. The other day when my new found waiting fever first hit, I was online looking at wedding related stuff and just that put me in a funk. Usually I would have a melt down and confront him about it but I decided to go for a walk and clear my head. The male 6th Sense must have kicked in because after my walk we were watching tv when he made serveral comments that had me thinking;
While watching a game show where the contentant won £20,000 I said “oh you could buy a lot of things with that” and he said “yes, I could get you a lovely new ring with that!”
and then about 5 mins later without any reason why he said “This is going to be such a magical year for us.”
He’s there, nearly. I think. (you know I’m probably reading this all wrong!) but I just hope it nearer this end rather than Chrismas, I’m not sure I could wait until Christmas 2011.
Wow that was long. Sorry girls.