- 10 years ago
So, if you’ve seen any of my recent posts, most of them are about waiting…and being impatient…and being irritated.
Well, today I have changed my tune completely. (And no, it isn’t because he popped the question, haha). I have come to realize that the waiting is what makes me appreciate my wonderful SO even more. Waiting for the ring, the proposal, the rest of our lives…is just a tiny thing. There is so much I was MISSING simply because I was too caught up in “Is it going to be today? Is he doing it today?”. I missed the fact that my SO has taken me on hiking trips, fishing, to Tennessee and Atlanta and Gadsden, and everywhere that we both love. He’s taken me to wonderful dinners, treated me like a queen, sat through Beauty and the Beast 3D without so much as a huff of irritation. So, WHY, why, why, am I being so blatantly rude and impatient with him…when he’s being so absolutely wonderful to me, daily?
There have been times in the past few weeks that he’ll bend down to tie his shoe, and then simply be doing just that. There have also been times that he’ll let me walk ahead of him, only to call “Hey, Stef, look!” and I’ll turn around and he’ll be doing some funny pose or snap a random picture of me.
All these things have recently made me happy and grateful, as opposed to frustrated that each new day proves to have just a BF and not a Fiance. But I’ve learned that love is worth waiting for, and HE, specifically, is worth waiting for. I already know he’s GOING to propose; I was sitting beside him when he bought the ring…it’s just a matter of WHEN. And the WHEN isn’t nearly as important as I once thought.
Because now I see how much he does for me, how much he wooes me daily, how he looks at me like I am the only girl he has ever seen…how he treats me like it’s the very first date, every date, every time. How he kisses me on top of a waterfall, not to look romantic, but because that’s part of who he is. How I can feel his emotion every time he catches my gaze and whispers, “I love you.” I know it’s real. I know he loves me. I know I want to be with him forever. And, even if he doesn’t propose for another 3 years….so what? I’m with him, and I know he’s my true love. Waiting for something as trivial as a ring seems ridiculous to me now…since I already have HIM, and that’s what I really wanted all along.
I realized that I can’t let myself get caught up in what I want to come, and miss out on everything right now. I’m enjoying every moment with him now, listening to his voice, or hearing him sing (loudly, but wonderfully) in his truck with the volume turned up.
He is my forever. He is worth waiting for. The ring, the proposal, that’s all worth waiting for. Patiently. And happily.
Because I’ve found all I’ve waited for. And I could not ask for more. 😉
Hope this helped you ladies feel a little better about the ‘waiting’ situation. Realizing this is the first step to Waiting Disease Recovery, I think. Hah. Have a good day, everyone!