Post # 1
This Friday DH and I had to make the toughest decision of our lives. We had to make the decision to put down our furry child, our golden Buster. He was 9 years old. DH and I got the dog together at the start of our relationship and I can’t tell you the JOY this dog brought into our lives.
Because of this dog I have learned how to be a better person…..I have learned what it means to love unconditionally and the meaning of compassion. I know some may not understand that but I swear it’s true……
Because of my dogs DH and I know volunteer at the shelter and we foster dogs. We have been going to our shelter over 5 years now and have prob found homes for over 50 dogs……the part that kills me in losing our baby Buster is that we save dogs all the time and we couldn’t save ours……
Buster quit responding to the chemo and the tumor was so large the vet said it was time. I wanted so bad for a miracle or anything to save him….I would have paid whatever it took at that moment just to keep him but I knew after talking with the vet that it was the best choice.
So on Friday I gave him his favorite treat (a vanilla ice cream cup) before he died in my arms. He was licking me and looking at me like he was trying to tell me mama it’s ok. He was in my arms when he took his last breath. I don’t think I have ever cried that hard in my entire life. I laid in the room with him on the cold vet floor sobbing. DH was crying too….I think this is one of the only times I have seen him cry. He finally had to pick me up off the floor b/c I just didn’t want to leave his side.
Thank you bees for letting me share this….this month has been a roller coaster. I have experienced both the best day of my life (10/11/12) our Wedding and the worst day (10/26/12) the loss of our dog. DH has really been amazing thru everything and I know we will get thru it.
I just wanted to share a few pics of my baby boy Buster
Buster is on the right in this pic:
Post # 3
I’m so sorry for your loss. Thankfully in his last moments he knew that he was loved.
Post # 4
I am so so sorry and can feel your pain. We lost our fur child just last week. It is a very tough loss to face but I’m so glad that your SO is being supportive. You’ll both get through it together. Just remember that your furbaby felt all the love you felt. Wish I had something better to say.
Post # 5
- Wedding: March 2012 - Father\'s Vineyard Church/ A Touch of Class Banquet Center
I am so sorry for your loss. I think that you did such an incredibly hard and brave thing by putting him down so he wouldn’t have to be in pain. Believe me, he know how much love you had for him in those last moments. Lots of hugs dear.
Post # 6
This is making me cry just reading it! I’m so sorry for your loss. He was a very lucky dog to have people that loved him so much. What a beautiful bond you shared and the best part is you will be forever changed for the better because of it.
Post # 7
I’m so sorry for your loss. We had to put our golden to sleep a year ago and it was so hard. Lots of hugs <3
Post # 8
It’s one of the hardest things we ever go through, and I truly understand the pain you are feeling. Be kind to yourself and try to hold on to the good memories – it’s what Buster would want you to do,
Post # 9
I am so sorry for you loss. Glad you could hold him in his final moments. Hold tight to all your memories. Puppy heaven gained a new furry friend.
Post # 10
I’m so sorry to hear this, I am in tears for you right now. We had to put our cat to sleep last year and it was one of the hardest things we’ve ever done. I know it will take a long time to start to heal, but just try to take a little comfort in the fact that you absolutely did the right thing for your beautiful Buster. So so sorry, sending you lots of hugs and positive thoughts.
Post # 11
Thanks bees. I can’t even begin to tell you how hard it has been since Fri. It has helped to get out some feelings here. I am worried about my other dog the bulldog in the pic b/c they have grown up together. I am afraid he is gonna start missing his brother. Right now he doesn’t seem to be acting any different which is good.
Post # 12
I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss. (hugs)
Post # 13
@weddingbound: He was beautiful. I’m so, so sorry for your loss.
Post # 14
I’m sooo sorry for your loss. By ever so happy for the love you shared for each other!
Post # 15
Aw, I’m so sorry for your loss. It is one of the worst decisions to ever make, but know that you did right by Buster.
Post # 16
I recently lost my beloved dog as well 🙁 10-13-2012 I know its hard. Hang in there and try to remember all the good times and funny stuff he did! praying for you! lots of love!